(no subject)
Hehe, I'm going to prom with a freshmen. That's amusing...
I don't think we're going to go out, though. We both can't commit, and are too afraid that if we do go out, and well, it doesn't work out, that our friendship is fucked over. But just in the past few fucking days, I don't think I've ever opened up so much to a fucking guy like that...it's kind of scary. It's really bad, I don't want to get attached. I'm so afraid that the minute I finally give in and be happy for once, that something is going to fuck it over. I've learned from so many mistakes in the past.
Basically what I've learned, is that to advoid having the feeling of something gained lost, don't gain it. The only reason that you have become sad is because you have experienced the happiness that you didn't have before, and when it is taken away, and you are left as of, then you miss what you lost, even though you are at equal gain as before.
Haaa, irony. Just as I'm writing this, too, fate fucking comes out to slap me in the face once again. Fucking A.
I don't think we're going to go out, though. We both can't commit, and are too afraid that if we do go out, and well, it doesn't work out, that our friendship is fucked over. But just in the past few fucking days, I don't think I've ever opened up so much to a fucking guy like that...it's kind of scary. It's really bad, I don't want to get attached. I'm so afraid that the minute I finally give in and be happy for once, that something is going to fuck it over. I've learned from so many mistakes in the past.
Basically what I've learned, is that to advoid having the feeling of something gained lost, don't gain it. The only reason that you have become sad is because you have experienced the happiness that you didn't have before, and when it is taken away, and you are left as of, then you miss what you lost, even though you are at equal gain as before.
Haaa, irony. Just as I'm writing this, too, fate fucking comes out to slap me in the face once again. Fucking A.