Be thankful..

[orange_coat]

..for circumstances which cause you to resort to faith.

Off-topic note to self: I find it amusing that those who have encouraged me in the past are a little silently surprised at my improvement. Did they not really believe the encouragement they gave me? This is fine, because humility allows people like us to be better authentically

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[lightsnowangel]

I think you need some supernatural mixed in with it.....
Get out of your head! Get into your heart...

In the past month, God guided me back to the true chruch and I have had some supernatural experiences to go with it...
that is why my faith is so great..

The other day, I saw the vibrations of the bells..really and truly did..I SAW it..
in addition to other things..

Then I found out that the bells are rung in church when something supernatural happens..

We might not see all that God does, but sometimes, just sometimes that veil can be lifted if we ask him to help increase our faith..

But we need to be careful because the devil is very real and will try to pull us away from the church and sacraments..that is what happened to me in all my Native stuff....I had a bunch of supernatural things happen there but in retrospect I don't think they were so good.

Plus God does not cause our suffferings..the devil and we do...God is very very good and only good!!

but dwelling outsde ourself and helping others is the ONLY way to get out of our own heads..

Anyway, the time I feel the best is when I help others, whether my son, the dying, etc....when I spend too much time on my own suffering I get myself miserable..

Also, it is spiritual warfare for real out there, I have seen it a bit, just a tiny little bit and know that when we have the most fear and doubt is when we are being attacked the most..I know you have been suffering so much..get some protection....holy water..all of it..pray..medals....

I may be nuts but I am telling the truth...:)

I will pray for you tonight....

If you do decide to be a nun I will be very happy for you!! Or whether to marry...you will do well either way..

I thnk I may be single forever and that may be ok...after what I have seen it will be hard to find someone to believe me anyway..maybe someday I will find someone nice...I do hope so, but I keep praying to God for a little girl and a nice husband...he does ansswer our prayers so I think it iwll happen in due time.....in due time...

Much Love!

what does <3 mean??

[orange_coat]

I BELIEVE YOU!! I do not think you are nuts at all :). I believe you because you always seem to write these things without seeking validation, in fact you seem to write it if it cost you validation. Maybe that's what happened with your husband..

I've never had any real apparent spiritual experience, never seen anything. But I get little things consistently enough to know it's no coincidence, and implications are too profound to ignore. You either live only to seek results, or you live for love regardless of... anything. I think that's what faith is, it's truly and sincerely choosing to love. And I do agree that more faith means more seeing..

<3 is supposed to look like a heart. Or I could've just used the html: &*hearts*; (without the asterisks) will look like ♥

Your advice is amaaaaazing!!! You are so aware! Thank youuu! You know what's interesting, is that even in the Catholic Church it can be hard to find profound community who will understand you. It can be discouraging, but then I remember this dream I once had of Jesus awhile back and He looked even more rejected than me. And He even looked a bit frazzled and scrawny. Doesn't that sound like Him? I think that when the pieces fit, then it's God.

"Plus God does not cause our suffferings..the devil and we do...God is very very good and only good!!" So true! But I think He allows it, yes? Sometimes the joy/suffering paradox confuses me a bit..

"If you do decide to be a nun I will be very happy for you!! Or whether to marry...you will do well either way.." If by any chance either one happens, I will finally have a good reason to update!

"I thnk I may be single forever and that may be ok...after what I have seen it will be hard to find someone to believe me anyway..maybe someday I will find someone nice...I do hope so, but I keep praying to God for a little girl and a nice husband...he does ansswer our prayers so I think it iwll happen in due time.....in due time..." I will be sure to pray for you! I tend to always say a prayer/intentions before eating something, and I have always included you and Fox! Maybe He had been listening to me after all? And now I have a new intention for you I can ask for!

I want to start praying more in general. I'm sure I have an endless supply of Rosaries, miraculous medals and holy medals in general, in addition to holy water. I just.. don't really use them. Heh.

Much love to you and Fox!

[lightsnowangel]

Thank you so very much for your prayers!!
I am praying for you too...God will sustain us both..

I have doubts too....never to the existence of God, but to the salvation of my soul...it is at those moments that I realize I am under attack...I think the devil works very hard to make us feel unworthy right at the exact moments we can do the most good for all....Like today I was having bad thoughts in church and started to cry about Dan and his family...I did not feel the peace I felt over Christmas, but healing is not always pretty..
and I do have a lot of pent up anger right now...
But I will go back and I will work through this and go to confession about this anger and it will be ok...

I think God does allow for our suffering...Jesus suffered too and he was his son..
Was it Job who he let be tested?? We all get tested!! What kind of teacher would never give a test?....

I love Jesus so much....he spoke the truth....he spoke it when it cost him his life...he spoke out against lies and selfishness...
even when I was doing native stuff I was praying to him...right guy, wrong venue!

Your dream...yes....I could imagine him being a bit frazzled! He thought that God had abandoned him even towards the end...tempted by the devil 40 days in the desert...
I prayed a bit ago to make me more like Jesus, so here is hoping they take mercy on me and don't make me go through so much..but it feels like I am in my own tempting ground now...really and truly...this is quite a big cross to bear...but it will be ok...I just need to keep going back to church and living the faith every day or I will die inside and outside...Dan and his family will kill me...that was what was happening..I was perpetually ill..I am not ill at all since I left him! My unhappiness was destroying me..

I hope you find a faith community you can feel that pull with! If I could I would go to Calcutta where Mother Theresa's sisters work...one day I pray to go there with Fox when he is bigger. I have a passion for ministering to the dying.....If I were to be a nun it would be there or somewhere more on the front lines against poverty, sickness, etc...
We have it pretty good here in the US so if it were here it would be inner city for me or impoverished rural area.....not that all don't need help, that is just what my soul would call me to do..

We'll talk more later...Mom needs me.,,gotta go!
Much love!

[orange_coat]

Wow I love what you say! What a God-send for you to be on my lj friend-list!

Love and prayers to you both!

[lightsnowangel]

Thanks! Same for you..

I read your edit..
You ARE awesome!! :) <3

[orange_gloves]

Aha! No wonder we understand each other..

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