Reflections 2017
With age, memory fades more quickly- maybe things get less exciting with years of life, or it’s because we have so many distractions such that we are putting less effort to commit anything to memory.
On the whole, though 2017 had started on a low (with a terrible viral fever), I think the past year had dealt a pretty good hand for me- or maybe I’d learnt to manage my emotions better now.
I can’t recall any memorable events of the year, but if I can describe it in a brief- it’d been filled with much (usual) ‘hustle and bustle’ complicated by ‘chronic tiredness’. While I am still trying to manage my ‘procrastinations’ amidst the ‘ambiguities’ of life, I’m thankful for God’s presence- assuring me that He’s here.
I give thanks for his love for my family- to soften the seemingly hardened hearts, for his answers to my questions about the future. But, I still have one thing left hanging- J. For all the repeated history of encounters that I cant find a reason to explain, I can only trust that God has His better reasons. Even if I may not understand it now, I will come to know why. More than anything, I am thankful for all the friends/mentors who are still around in my life.
So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well (Matthew 6:31-33). I know He will provide for us beyond our basic necessities, looking after our emotional and spiritual needs. I just need to learn to trust in His sovereign plans and timings- that he will provide the clarity at the appropriate time/ or maybe it’s just left for me to accept the truth that I’ve been escaping.
Perhaps, sometimes we need patience to really decipher His will; or we of little faith require much reassurance to go on a path he has called us to (cos we tend to rationalise our way out of things), or it’s just a matter of awakening what has been buried deep inside - and you didn’t realise you’ve just been using something else as a proxy to convince yourself otherwise.
人生兜兜转转，却又回到10年前的初衷。或许，那终点其实一直没有改变，只不过是一条较漫长的道路。但那所谓的冤枉路，并非流逝的岁月, 它也许包括了你人生一些必经的成长经历。
If truly, He has called you to do something - why wouldn’t he equip you with the capacity to complete it? It is definitely a call to rely on his providence and strength, for He said “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12: 9). Indeed, wherein lies my confidence? Not in my own works and my strength, but in Him alone.
May we continue to seek joy in Him in whatever we do, and His spirits be with us as we navigate through another new year of 2018.