woah
Hello friend.
To be honest, in the past 10 years plus of our friendship, I have had transient thoughts about you being more than a friend; but they were often in passing, dying out before any feelings were rooted; and hence why we are currently where we are.
Looking back, we have gone on dates (well it was just two of us), actually multiple times.
Now, we have this ongoing (albeit intermittent) messaging banter.
And this trip made me realised - you are someone that i can tolerate hanging out the whole day (without feeling tired of). I actually enjoyed doing something boring -such as watching movies on the couch with you (and you can stand me interrupting with questions); we can manage long car rides or waste time away watching the world go by (without feeling we rather be doing something else- at least for me).
We actually got to know each other better, with you sharing many stories that you previously refused to; and we could have somewhat deeper and meaningful conversations amidst the flippant discussion about emo songs and what-nots. We have probably unknowingly built up this comfortable camaraderie that is somewhat- special.
And the turning point- was that day when you came up well-dressed in a suit. 'Woah' was my instinctive response- really, you looked dashing (I have seldom outrightly praised guys for looking good). And you without any awkwardness took the compliment graciously.
It was nonetheless a good day hanging out (in spite of you emo-ing still, but somewhat lesser) and the open-ness of our friendship- no need to be overtly polite or second guess each other's actual thoughts, made it a really enjoyable day. No fluttering hearts, but a warm fuzzy feeling.
I have revisited that moment when I saw you at the station - a few times. It wasnt the gushing-over kind of feeling that I have for LDW the korean star, but rather a slow radiating feeling that i never really have before. I think, I am starting to see you in a different light.
If you ask me which category you belong to, it's the second, and I had shared with your housemate V, that if you ever are interested, i really wouldnt mind.
Even though, there will be other important considerations that have to be worked out. But, how often do you meet someone who could make you feel so comfortably at ease?
I can only continue to pray: dear God, please continue to guide me according to your will, help me if you will- close the door if it isnt meant to be but if it is, please grant me the wisdom to see your signs.
To be honest, in the past 10 years plus of our friendship, I have had transient thoughts about you being more than a friend; but they were often in passing, dying out before any feelings were rooted; and hence why we are currently where we are.
Looking back, we have gone on dates (well it was just two of us), actually multiple times.
Now, we have this ongoing (albeit intermittent) messaging banter.
And this trip made me realised - you are someone that i can tolerate hanging out the whole day (without feeling tired of). I actually enjoyed doing something boring -such as watching movies on the couch with you (and you can stand me interrupting with questions); we can manage long car rides or waste time away watching the world go by (without feeling we rather be doing something else- at least for me).
We actually got to know each other better, with you sharing many stories that you previously refused to; and we could have somewhat deeper and meaningful conversations amidst the flippant discussion about emo songs and what-nots. We have probably unknowingly built up this comfortable camaraderie that is somewhat- special.
And the turning point- was that day when you came up well-dressed in a suit. 'Woah' was my instinctive response- really, you looked dashing (I have seldom outrightly praised guys for looking good). And you without any awkwardness took the compliment graciously.
It was nonetheless a good day hanging out (in spite of you emo-ing still, but somewhat lesser) and the open-ness of our friendship- no need to be overtly polite or second guess each other's actual thoughts, made it a really enjoyable day. No fluttering hearts, but a warm fuzzy feeling.
I have revisited that moment when I saw you at the station - a few times. It wasnt the gushing-over kind of feeling that I have for LDW the korean star, but rather a slow radiating feeling that i never really have before. I think, I am starting to see you in a different light.
If you ask me which category you belong to, it's the second, and I had shared with your housemate V, that if you ever are interested, i really wouldnt mind.
Even though, there will be other important considerations that have to be worked out. But, how often do you meet someone who could make you feel so comfortably at ease?
I can only continue to pray: dear God, please continue to guide me according to your will, help me if you will- close the door if it isnt meant to be but if it is, please grant me the wisdom to see your signs.