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i'm so tired of it all. i came home today. i'm begining to hate that 3 hour drive. i got home at 830. no one was here. they were supposed to be back by then. no one got here until 1030. i was angry. also,when i got home that cat box hadnt been taken out and everything stank and my room was just so yucky. so i took a shower and i cleaned my bath room....walls, base boards, tub, toilet, sink, cabinet, mirrors, doors, and floor. then i cleaned out the catbox and washed it and cleaned the cats bowels. then i finished the cleaning/rearranging i started in my room last week. i did all my laundry and most of theirs, as well as the dishes. when i finished it was 100 and my mom went to bed mad, my dad tried to talk to me but just made it worse by telling me he wanted to give the cats away and that i shouldn't complain b/c it was his roomm not mine, and that the only thing i ever bought myself that was kind of expensive (my papasan chair) was basically at his mercy. they have it in the living room and i wanted it back. but he said they were all his rooms, so my chair went in which ever of his rooms he wanted. i ignored him after that.
lydia is mad b/c i didn't call her when i got home. although i did return her call yesturday and left a messege when she didn't pick up that she didn't return. how was i supposed to know she cared? i cant call the whole world when i get home, esp if i have no idea they want me to. why doesn't she tell me to do this? she gets so wrapped up in how often i do or dont call her, she forgets to act like she gives a shit about me and just seems righteously hurt.
james said to get online to talk, but he isnt here. i guess he fell asleep. understnadable. *sigh* our ac is broken, so there wont be much sleep out of me.
i'm tired of being talked to like an animal or less...or more than i am and someone who can handle this constant snapping and attitude from almost everyone. i am not crap. i deserve to be spoken to like a person. with feelings. not even counting the oversensitive ones. just some feeling. where did it go? it was there for a while.... *cries*
i miss blake.
i do think its funny, though, that our brand new beautiful fridge is too big for the space the fridge goes in.
lydia is mad b/c i didn't call her when i got home. although i did return her call yesturday and left a messege when she didn't pick up that she didn't return. how was i supposed to know she cared? i cant call the whole world when i get home, esp if i have no idea they want me to. why doesn't she tell me to do this? she gets so wrapped up in how often i do or dont call her, she forgets to act like she gives a shit about me and just seems righteously hurt.
james said to get online to talk, but he isnt here. i guess he fell asleep. understnadable. *sigh* our ac is broken, so there wont be much sleep out of me.
i'm tired of being talked to like an animal or less...or more than i am and someone who can handle this constant snapping and attitude from almost everyone. i am not crap. i deserve to be spoken to like a person. with feelings. not even counting the oversensitive ones. just some feeling. where did it go? it was there for a while.... *cries*
i miss blake.
i do think its funny, though, that our brand new beautiful fridge is too big for the space the fridge goes in.