Alone Without
Another rough poem. Enjoy
I'm up again.
Heavy-limbed and bleary-eyed
Unsteady on limbs always racked with pain.
I'm answering a call far louder then it needs to be with all the purpose of marathon runner
and possibly making a few mistakes.
Life is simpler without a child.
Simpler
Quieter
Neater
I'm never outsmarted by someone who still can't make sentences or walk on his own.
(well, maybe the cats)
It's simpler
but never better.
I'm aware, now, of pain that may never be cured
Already understood by a child more clever then Josephus in the well.
But the agony
the Aloneness that makes it unbearable
Shivers and crumbles when I look into those endlessly blue eyes.
It's simpler to be alone
But alone is where you never want to be.
I'm up again.
Heavy-limbed and bleary-eyed
Unsteady on limbs always racked with pain.
I'm answering a call far louder then it needs to be with all the purpose of marathon runner
and possibly making a few mistakes.
Life is simpler without a child.
Simpler
Quieter
Neater
I'm never outsmarted by someone who still can't make sentences or walk on his own.
(well, maybe the cats)
It's simpler
but never better.
I'm aware, now, of pain that may never be cured
Already understood by a child more clever then Josephus in the well.
But the agony
the Aloneness that makes it unbearable
Shivers and crumbles when I look into those endlessly blue eyes.
It's simpler to be alone
But alone is where you never want to be.