well well well

[or_die_trying05]

I went to Harrisburg on Wednesday to see chris with Sarah. I thought it would be amazing. Boy was I wrong. We had to hang out with everyone of his friends, which is fine, but I didn't get any any any Chris/Amber time at all. I mean we got to talk in the woods for like fifteen minutes. In which time I was put in a bad/upset mood and I apparently ruined the rest of the day. I was really upset the rest of the day and he pretty much told me that I ruined it. But w/e. Then before I left I asked him if I was losing him, cause it felt that way, and I didn't want to at all..well he looked me right in the eye and told me that I wasn't going to lose him, pinkie swear/kiss the thumb. While that may sound childish, it's an inside joke and it's very very sacred to pinkie swear/kiss the thumb.

Well I called him when I got home to tell him I was safe and all and when we hung up he wouldn't say he loved me. So I called him a few hours later to talk and see what the hell was going on and he ended up dumping me. Isn't that sweet? I traveled 150 miles to see him and spent around $30 in the meantime and put gas in his car etc etc..and thats what I get. Oh well

I was so extremely depressed for a few days, and now I'm in the middle of the angry stage. Last night I called b/c he called me Thursday and he was like "yeah well i'm watching a movie, bye". You mean to tell me he can't even talk to me, maturely and tell me whats going on, why he decided to break up etc etc???

<3amb//whatever