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I don't know what I updated last, but whatever, long story short I almost met up with Scott to talk and have a drink but due to him being retarded, we didn't (i.e. "suddenly" being broke and then having other plans the day of).
HOWEVER
All of my friends, acquaintances, friends' significant others, coworkers, family members, etc., think that it's a good idea to just talk shit about him. Like that's going to make me feel better. Granted, I know there's the obligatory "he was such an asshole anyway! You're so much better than him" sentiment after a breakup, but calling him a "twat," "douchebag," "asshole," and having "deformed thought processes" don't make me feel better. In fact, they make me feel worse, because GUESS WHAT? I chose to date him for two and a half years. So, by proxy, I'm a fucking dumbass too. And I'm not. We had a really good relationship for the first year and a half or more.
None of my friends (or family) knew him very well because we lived kind of far from each other for awhile, then both of us lived farther away, and yeah, he didn't really bother to meet my pals. That was another problem I had with him. And when he was around my friends, it was usually because of a "party" or some get together and for some reason he had anxiety and issues with that. I'm not denying him not knowing my friends was an issue. But that also means NO ONE REALLY KNEW HIM WELL ENOUGH TO MAKE STUPID FUCKING BLANKET STATEMENTS ABOUT HIM. If you're not educated on a subject, don't pretend to be a fucking expert. And don't tell me that my judgment is clouded because I was romantically involved with him. I'm not a fucking stargazing romantic who can't get past my old flame. I wasn't so in love with the idea of him that I couldn't accept that he had flaws - OBVIOUSLY, SINCE I WAS GOING TO THREATEN TO BREAK UP WITH HIM FIRST.
I just wish people who care about me would back the fuck off and let me get over him. I don't have to hate him to get over him; in fact, I'd rather not. We didn't have a messy breakup. He's done some stupid shit, some assholeish shit, but I wouldn't characterize him as a stupid asshole. FUCK. I just want to get over it. If that involves talking to him about some unresolved shit what's it to you? Give me some goddamn credit.
HOWEVER
All of my friends, acquaintances, friends' significant others, coworkers, family members, etc., think that it's a good idea to just talk shit about him. Like that's going to make me feel better. Granted, I know there's the obligatory "he was such an asshole anyway! You're so much better than him" sentiment after a breakup, but calling him a "twat," "douchebag," "asshole," and having "deformed thought processes" don't make me feel better. In fact, they make me feel worse, because GUESS WHAT? I chose to date him for two and a half years. So, by proxy, I'm a fucking dumbass too. And I'm not. We had a really good relationship for the first year and a half or more.
None of my friends (or family) knew him very well because we lived kind of far from each other for awhile, then both of us lived farther away, and yeah, he didn't really bother to meet my pals. That was another problem I had with him. And when he was around my friends, it was usually because of a "party" or some get together and for some reason he had anxiety and issues with that. I'm not denying him not knowing my friends was an issue. But that also means NO ONE REALLY KNEW HIM WELL ENOUGH TO MAKE STUPID FUCKING BLANKET STATEMENTS ABOUT HIM. If you're not educated on a subject, don't pretend to be a fucking expert. And don't tell me that my judgment is clouded because I was romantically involved with him. I'm not a fucking stargazing romantic who can't get past my old flame. I wasn't so in love with the idea of him that I couldn't accept that he had flaws - OBVIOUSLY, SINCE I WAS GOING TO THREATEN TO BREAK UP WITH HIM FIRST.
I just wish people who care about me would back the fuck off and let me get over him. I don't have to hate him to get over him; in fact, I'd rather not. We didn't have a messy breakup. He's done some stupid shit, some assholeish shit, but I wouldn't characterize him as a stupid asshole. FUCK. I just want to get over it. If that involves talking to him about some unresolved shit what's it to you? Give me some goddamn credit.