The last straw
I officially felt the last straw that broke the camel's back today! It is difficult for me to see what God is doing with my heart right now, but I feel like I am at the lowest of the low. So many things have went wrong and have not came out the way I wanted them to. Let us begin with pledge. We started out with 13 and now we have 4. I am so greatful for the 4 awesome pledges we have, but this "adventure" has been hard on me. I know that all the things I have experience are helping me become a more prominent leader and man of God. Then, my classes finally slamed me into a corner with no way out. So, I dropped my major American writers class just so I can breathe a little. I cannot believe that I have let things get ot me so bad. I needed this break though. Although, getting a D on my History of the English Language test wasn't pleasant (for a lack of better words) When I took the 7 books (5 being novels) back to the bookstore I felt relieved. On top of class stress came car stress. I have had to spend over 500 dollars on my car this week. I now have 4 new tires, but they are all different brands. That is because ALL four of them needed replaced at different times. It is complicated, but it was just one more thing to be added to the list. On top of that came my family. My unlce is paralyzed from the neck down after a horse accident, My great grandmother is getting worse in the nursing home, My grandfather died today after battling cancer, and my brother lost another job. That is TOO much stuff to deal with!!!!!!! But wait...let's put a cherry on top, I am sick and missed the ropes course for teaching fellows. There are so many more things I could complain about right now! I could go into my own struggles that I usually gripe about on this thing, but I don't have the energy. I have definately been broken and now all i wanna do it start putting the pieces back together. GOD is an awesome person to seek when it comes to times like these. I just had to sit down and cry today while I was watching "Million Dollar Baby" that I borrowed from Daniel. It flet good to just let it out and not worry about stress. Please pray for my family!!!! Please pray for me!!! Please pray for the frat!!!