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This has been one of the most stressful times in my life!!! I cannot control my emotions, but luckily i am not being rude or extremely obnoxious. I have noticed a change in my metal thoughts when it comes to stress. I know that i can do all things with the help of God, and complaining will not get my stuff done. So this was my position, it all started Saturday/ Sunday morning. I had just gotten back from one of the best concerts i had ever been too!!! Del and I went to see Jeremy Camp and Mercy Me in concert. It kind of defined my semester. I got to hang out with an AWESOME friend and experience God working in my life. It is hard to explain what happened to me that night. It is like all the words of the songs were speaking straight to me. Every song had something to do with what was going on in my head. One song in particular brought tears to my eyes. It is no secret that i am battling health problems, but i do try to keep my pain under raps. This Saturday was when i had to face the truth. Mercy Me's song "I gotta keep singing" was what kept me from dropping out of college over Christmas. Only a few people knew this, but now you all know. It taught me that i shouldn't just roll around in my pain but fight it. I am going off on a tangent, but when i heard that song my heart oppened up and i laid myself before Jesus. That was the best timing because when i got back to Charleston i receievd my Shakeseare exam...7 essays. I freaked out inside because this brought my paper count to 15 due on Saturday. Yes, 15...i am not lieing. If it was not for Jesus i would have freaked out, luckily Amanda sent me an IM at the exact moment (thank God) and calmed me down and made me realize i could do it. So here i am, Wed with only 4 more to go and all the hard ones done. With my school work under a managable load i faced my health. Del came into play with this. He never lets me overlook a thing. My health is a very private issue, but maybe it should be out there more. So if you wanna know anything ask me...i will let you know. I am afraid of what is going to happen, but with the friends i have i can do it.
::side note::
The fraternity is a great support group. Nathan: the person who has taught me I can do anything i put my mind to. Jackson: the one who keeps me positive and teaches me anything i want to know about God. Ross: the person who is prob the most like me in the frat (don't deny it) who has been their in times of smiles and pain. Del: the man who will keep me on my toes and shows me i can help others also. Then, Daniel: the person i tell everything, the person who gives it to me straight, and the person i would be lost without. All of these awesome guys come together for service, but also will help me out of i ever get bogged down or in need of anything.
Back to my point, my life is a speeding train. I am going from this smester straight to Maymester and then working here all summer. I am not going to get a break! I am not going to slow down though because i want experience everything i can. I find myself having to drop out of commitments because of my health. I just hope people understand!!! The biggest person i wish i could make understand is Jess. My stressful life keeps me from her and want that to stop. I stinks when you wanna do one thing but you HAVE to do another.
::side note::
The fraternity is a great support group. Nathan: the person who has taught me I can do anything i put my mind to. Jackson: the one who keeps me positive and teaches me anything i want to know about God. Ross: the person who is prob the most like me in the frat (don't deny it) who has been their in times of smiles and pain. Del: the man who will keep me on my toes and shows me i can help others also. Then, Daniel: the person i tell everything, the person who gives it to me straight, and the person i would be lost without. All of these awesome guys come together for service, but also will help me out of i ever get bogged down or in need of anything.
Back to my point, my life is a speeding train. I am going from this smester straight to Maymester and then working here all summer. I am not going to get a break! I am not going to slow down though because i want experience everything i can. I find myself having to drop out of commitments because of my health. I just hope people understand!!! The biggest person i wish i could make understand is Jess. My stressful life keeps me from her and want that to stop. I stinks when you wanna do one thing but you HAVE to do another.