brain hurt real bad
Life is full of changes and the world is constantly in motion......but that doesn't mean I have to like it!
I've made some really poor decisions in the past few years, and now they've all come back to bite me in the arse. Ever since my divorce (which is the one thing I don't consider a bad decision) I seem to have lost the ability to make correct choices.
My choice of careers the last few years has been pretty lousy, I keep trying to find better jobs that pay more and have some advancement. But the last three jobs I've had have been really crappy, one of them was quite literally crappy (wastewater treatment plant, mmmm sewage). It also appears that every job I get pays less than the last one! Now some of this may not have directly been my fault, but since I was the one who took these jobs I believe I'm responsible, directly or not.
I've also made some bad choices concerning my health, I still smoke, got bad teeth, I've gained weight, and I'm not exactly "Mr. Exercise" by any standard.
As far as my personal life goes...well, I've again let my damn near fatal co-dependency take over and once I jumped ship on my marriage I took the easiest route and went for the safest situation available.
So, here I am: 1. crummy job 2. low pay 3. fat 4. weak and sore 5. bad teeth 6. in a relationship of convenience.....
Yes, we already know I hate change, but here we go....
I'm currently looking for a better job with more pay ---- solves #'s 1 & 2
I'm trying to watch what I eat and started working out again---- solves #'s 3 & 4
Getting to the dentist regularly and having my head rebuilt---- solve # 5
And the answer for # 6 is.......yeah, I got nothing...brain hurt real bad!
well, its getting late, I guess I should sleep now, I think we'll ponder #6 next time...