Holidays
Why are the holidays hit or miss? Now that I'm with someone, we have to share things and thats fine. But the thing is, I get the raw end. I'm so sick of compromising when it comes to family time. We spend so much time with his family and so little with mine. Its even worse around the holidays. Last year was really bad. Thanksgiving was good but Christmas was a disaster. Christmas eve is my family's thing. We go to my aunt's house, spend time with the kids, and do the bulk of presents. Its the main even of Christmas. But last year, we both had to work. I got out later than I wanted. We had to drive my Grandfather with us (which was actually fine). My aunt lives on Otisco Lake so its about a 45 minute drive. The thing is, we also had to do Christmas eve with his family all the way in Baldwinsville. His parents were calling again and again to see where we were, how far away we were, when we were getting there. We had to cut my family's time short. We ate and quickly opened presents then had to leave. We sped to B'ville just in time for him to do presents with them. We were there for probably 20 minutes before they left for mass. It was awful. He was angry with his parents and frustrated for how things went with my family. I was upset that he was getting upset and that we barely spent time with the kids. I ended up in tears at the end of the night. We both vowed that we would never let it be like that again.
But here we are. Its Thanksgiving on Thursday. We're both working all week except that day. We've both been working so much that we barely see eachother, we've been fighting, and things just down. We patched things up a little this past weekend but this is upsetting me. I want to spend the holidays with my boyfriend. I'm going to marry this man someday soon. Is it so much to ask to spend the holidays with him? The one day that we both have free? I understand that it is his mother's birthday and she wants to be with her sisters but why can't I have him for dinner? He is going to his grandmother's for dinner and then we're both supposed to go to his aunt's for dessert. I spend the day with my family, alone. No sister, no boyfriend, alone. Which is fine, I guess. I don't see them all that much and hopefully the kids will be there. My family will not see him all day. The kids will miss him and so will I. Its nice to have him around. He even offered to let me stay with my family all day (alone) but thats not the point. The worst thing is that there is nothing we can do. I wanted to do dinner with both families since dinner for them is just his parents and grandma but that won't fly. I wanted to do dessert with his family at my house but that won't fly either. I'm just so frustrated. Frustrated with how things have been going with us, between working, the stress of the move, and whatever else, and now how this holiday is going to be. I'm just sooo FRUSTRATED!! Plus grandma is sick so she'll probably still be miserable. I'm not trying to be a downer and look at things so negatively, its just coming out that way.
It just sucks. It sucks hard.
But here we are. Its Thanksgiving on Thursday. We're both working all week except that day. We've both been working so much that we barely see eachother, we've been fighting, and things just down. We patched things up a little this past weekend but this is upsetting me. I want to spend the holidays with my boyfriend. I'm going to marry this man someday soon. Is it so much to ask to spend the holidays with him? The one day that we both have free? I understand that it is his mother's birthday and she wants to be with her sisters but why can't I have him for dinner? He is going to his grandmother's for dinner and then we're both supposed to go to his aunt's for dessert. I spend the day with my family, alone. No sister, no boyfriend, alone. Which is fine, I guess. I don't see them all that much and hopefully the kids will be there. My family will not see him all day. The kids will miss him and so will I. Its nice to have him around. He even offered to let me stay with my family all day (alone) but thats not the point. The worst thing is that there is nothing we can do. I wanted to do dinner with both families since dinner for them is just his parents and grandma but that won't fly. I wanted to do dessert with his family at my house but that won't fly either. I'm just so frustrated. Frustrated with how things have been going with us, between working, the stress of the move, and whatever else, and now how this holiday is going to be. I'm just sooo FRUSTRATED!! Plus grandma is sick so she'll probably still be miserable. I'm not trying to be a downer and look at things so negatively, its just coming out that way.
It just sucks. It sucks hard.