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well - I have decided to start applying for another job due to the lack of funds - however I do not want just any old job that I have to put up with that only makes me miserable and depressed. I want a job I can have absolutely no responsibility - where I can arrrive - get on and thinking is left to the bear minimum so I can get on with the more important tasks such as planning my career.
I am fed up with paying bills and trying to survive alone. I really do wish that sometimes I had a bit more support from my family - I wish they would at least fucking ring me and find out how I'm doing - giving me advice etc - just like a normal family.
I might sound a little fed up - and I guess I am, but I still remain strong I guess. I hate money - I hate buying things - I hate television - I hate selfish people - I hate lazy people - If I could choose anything that would make me satisfied it would be working on a farm or something - getting on with hard work - having no troubles with money and time for myself away from this fucking miserable town and its miserable fucking people. I have absolutely no idea why I choose to bring myself even more hard work. I am really starting to hate the TV business - its full of selfish wankers with thier offices - and thier suits and thier 4x4 cars (when they live in the fucking city!!!)Cant we all just live status free and go back to the caveman times when live was just plain and image just did not matter. I hate surviving in modern life - I want to be me without having to worry about being something else.
I hate feeling depressed - it sucks...life sucks.
I am fed up with paying bills and trying to survive alone. I really do wish that sometimes I had a bit more support from my family - I wish they would at least fucking ring me and find out how I'm doing - giving me advice etc - just like a normal family.
I might sound a little fed up - and I guess I am, but I still remain strong I guess. I hate money - I hate buying things - I hate television - I hate selfish people - I hate lazy people - If I could choose anything that would make me satisfied it would be working on a farm or something - getting on with hard work - having no troubles with money and time for myself away from this fucking miserable town and its miserable fucking people. I have absolutely no idea why I choose to bring myself even more hard work. I am really starting to hate the TV business - its full of selfish wankers with thier offices - and thier suits and thier 4x4 cars (when they live in the fucking city!!!)Cant we all just live status free and go back to the caveman times when live was just plain and image just did not matter. I hate surviving in modern life - I want to be me without having to worry about being something else.
I hate feeling depressed - it sucks...life sucks.