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yeeeesss.....its another day - they just keep coming - when will they ever stop? - shit...that sounds a bit morbid.
Today sees Mr Barker doing his work, as usual - going to a meeting - doing more work and then sleeping - dont you just love fucking university. I always look back at my first year. It was a good time - partying pretty much every night - spending lots of money on rubbish, and generally having a good time. I looked at the work i did in the first year and its really naff - its amazing how much i have come on since then - but i aint really sure how this has happened - i mean i feel as though i have learnt nothing, but in actual fact i have. I think one of the biggest things that has happened is that i have gained confidence and self essteem - however i still never ever believe i'm any good at what i do - should i start doing this or would it just turn me into an ego maniac? It seems the majority of people who make it in the tele business are ego driven so perhaps thats a good thing - but unfortunately that aint me.
THis is where i want to be in the future - i want to have my own production company - firstly making corporate videos, music videos? and making documentarys. I mean i have spent like 3 years of my life learning how to do it so why not carry on doing it and perfecting my abilities? - its what i enjoy. Eventually i want to make a feature film - however this is a long way off.
Sorry for my life story its just that i have been thinking hard about it all, trying to find out what would be the best option. It does not really hit you untill the final year that the dream of university is actually a reality, and you actually need to do something with your degree - however there is fuck all to do with it. All i can say is that the course so far has taught me an awful lot about myself - where i want to be etc. I wouldn't replace the experience for anything. The hard work is actully fun - i mean when else do you ever get harsh deadlines that you must aim for? - when i finish this i think its gonna be quite difficult to cope with - having nothing really to do - but i am not the sort of person who would not waste this opportunity, and just carry on the deadlines, setting myself my own objectives. That is what makes people successful - people with an unusual drive to achieve more. Why the hell not create my own company - it will be fun - challenging - and an adventure. Fuck the stability of a proper job - i think risk taking is needed to fufill your ultimate desires - people are just too scared to face up to it - i say go for it. Like Matt who has the desire to be a music star - fucking go for it - it will be a good fucking experience trying - and making music is what you are.
Making films is what i am so i shall persue this at every cost. Wish me luck!
God i feel so fucking pretensious today.
Today sees Mr Barker doing his work, as usual - going to a meeting - doing more work and then sleeping - dont you just love fucking university. I always look back at my first year. It was a good time - partying pretty much every night - spending lots of money on rubbish, and generally having a good time. I looked at the work i did in the first year and its really naff - its amazing how much i have come on since then - but i aint really sure how this has happened - i mean i feel as though i have learnt nothing, but in actual fact i have. I think one of the biggest things that has happened is that i have gained confidence and self essteem - however i still never ever believe i'm any good at what i do - should i start doing this or would it just turn me into an ego maniac? It seems the majority of people who make it in the tele business are ego driven so perhaps thats a good thing - but unfortunately that aint me.
THis is where i want to be in the future - i want to have my own production company - firstly making corporate videos, music videos? and making documentarys. I mean i have spent like 3 years of my life learning how to do it so why not carry on doing it and perfecting my abilities? - its what i enjoy. Eventually i want to make a feature film - however this is a long way off.
Sorry for my life story its just that i have been thinking hard about it all, trying to find out what would be the best option. It does not really hit you untill the final year that the dream of university is actually a reality, and you actually need to do something with your degree - however there is fuck all to do with it. All i can say is that the course so far has taught me an awful lot about myself - where i want to be etc. I wouldn't replace the experience for anything. The hard work is actully fun - i mean when else do you ever get harsh deadlines that you must aim for? - when i finish this i think its gonna be quite difficult to cope with - having nothing really to do - but i am not the sort of person who would not waste this opportunity, and just carry on the deadlines, setting myself my own objectives. That is what makes people successful - people with an unusual drive to achieve more. Why the hell not create my own company - it will be fun - challenging - and an adventure. Fuck the stability of a proper job - i think risk taking is needed to fufill your ultimate desires - people are just too scared to face up to it - i say go for it. Like Matt who has the desire to be a music star - fucking go for it - it will be a good fucking experience trying - and making music is what you are.
Making films is what i am so i shall persue this at every cost. Wish me luck!
God i feel so fucking pretensious today.