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I post here to release my thoughts that haunt me. I trust my friends here to be able to handle it. I assume others read so it's like getting it out but without the need to explain myself.
My period was 4 days late from its normal day of arrival. I did implants last year so pregnancy is unlikely but since I haven't been tested it might be possible. I was actually hopeful. Almost as if Beth was sending me a baby. I had already resolved myself that I wouldn't be able to give a new child all I gave the others because I can barely do what I need now. But then when it presented I was hopeful. Today, I was sad when my hope was taken away. I'm sure it's for the better. It doesn't matter anyway. But I'll tell Bob about it tomorrow.
Bob and I are struggling. We hit a really bad spot on the day of the service. It included police. Then 5 days later we found our way back to each other like we always do. We don't spend much time together as we wait to set up therapy. But the time we are together is very valuable.
Sleepy time...
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