get rid of the baggage, or get rid of me
i sailed through my human geography exam in less than twenty minutes. i got my late-night job, starting next week. just when the day was going well, and i went to see zach, he tells me he kissed adriel again.
great. my first impulse is to break up with him, but i don't want to. call me weak, but he's a great guy and despite the unfairness of the situation, i know that he's honest with me, and very much likes me. that goes a long way.
i went cold the moment he told me and we spent two and a half hours talking about it. he asked me not to hold back if i felt like yelling at or hitting him, but i'm not violent or insane enough to yell at him. we just talked for hours... about how he was going to have to make up his mind or all this is going to happen again. i can't blame him for still loving her- i still love shane. if shane still spoke to me, i would undoubtably be in zach's situation.
i understand that it's difficult for him. i understand getting caught up in the moment. i don't understand how he hasn't yet learned his lesson. and i wish i would for once meet someone who doesn't have that scary ex-girlfriend.
i don't want to tell him what to do. i can't say "zach, you can't see her anymore" because i can't dictate his actions like that. i ended up just telling him to make up his mind.
if he kisses her again, i'm going to give him an ultimatum. i hate the very thought of doing that, but i think i've been understanding enough. i can't play the doormat.
during our conversation, i looked anywhere but him, and i didn't touch him. after we said all we had to say, he asked me if i hated him, and i started laughing.
i hugged him, because he asked me to. but i turned my head when he tried to kiss me.
i don't know if i'm doing the right thing. a tiny part of me wants to break up with him just to make a point, but that would be sinking to adriel's level. i genuinely like zach, and i know he likes me. i made myself perfectly clear last night, that he needs to make up his mind or this is all going to happen again. get rid of the baggage or get rid of me.
the night was saved by going over to jason's and watching steven segeal's first movie, Above the Law. nothing like a stupid action flick to lighten the mood.
we always have such a good time together. we can talk about anything, no subject is taboo. he respects my opinions. he respects me. we can play music all day, watch movies, talk, cook, go to the woods, etc. and it's always a good time.
i just wish he'd make up his mind.
great. my first impulse is to break up with him, but i don't want to. call me weak, but he's a great guy and despite the unfairness of the situation, i know that he's honest with me, and very much likes me. that goes a long way.
i went cold the moment he told me and we spent two and a half hours talking about it. he asked me not to hold back if i felt like yelling at or hitting him, but i'm not violent or insane enough to yell at him. we just talked for hours... about how he was going to have to make up his mind or all this is going to happen again. i can't blame him for still loving her- i still love shane. if shane still spoke to me, i would undoubtably be in zach's situation.
i understand that it's difficult for him. i understand getting caught up in the moment. i don't understand how he hasn't yet learned his lesson. and i wish i would for once meet someone who doesn't have that scary ex-girlfriend.
i don't want to tell him what to do. i can't say "zach, you can't see her anymore" because i can't dictate his actions like that. i ended up just telling him to make up his mind.
if he kisses her again, i'm going to give him an ultimatum. i hate the very thought of doing that, but i think i've been understanding enough. i can't play the doormat.
during our conversation, i looked anywhere but him, and i didn't touch him. after we said all we had to say, he asked me if i hated him, and i started laughing.
i hugged him, because he asked me to. but i turned my head when he tried to kiss me.
i don't know if i'm doing the right thing. a tiny part of me wants to break up with him just to make a point, but that would be sinking to adriel's level. i genuinely like zach, and i know he likes me. i made myself perfectly clear last night, that he needs to make up his mind or this is all going to happen again. get rid of the baggage or get rid of me.
the night was saved by going over to jason's and watching steven segeal's first movie, Above the Law. nothing like a stupid action flick to lighten the mood.
we always have such a good time together. we can talk about anything, no subject is taboo. he respects my opinions. he respects me. we can play music all day, watch movies, talk, cook, go to the woods, etc. and it's always a good time.
i just wish he'd make up his mind.