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I'm angry tonight. And I hadn't meant to be angry tonight. Now I'm angry at today, and yesterday and tomorrow. I'm angry because I know I won't study for the test that's already waiting for me to fail. I'm angry because I undeleted this journal. I'm angry because of all the stupid spineless people out there that are turning me into a stupid
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I'm angry because I can't seem to understand math, or paint, or draw anything properly anymore.
but you can make these things happen if you want to, need to. I never understood maths, still don't!
But it's like when everything you thought you just did naturally becomes a chore or an effort- that's to do with mindset. long story short- when something gives, or snaps, and you make a change everything suddenly looks better, changes aswell. I am about to give my notice in to a job that has practically killed my creative soul, made me angry and depressed (though to many it's seen as being really "good") and i wrote the resignation letter and someone phoned me up and said there's a good job i can apply for elsewhere, and i met a woman who publishes a literary magazine and she asked me to write for it...all the same day- i swear if you make a decision that might be scary or decide "right, this shit is gonna change" then BANG it just does. Follow your heart.
all of the above may not be helpful but i hope it is in some way.
take care, and remember - anger IS an energy
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