Confusion..?
Wanted:
... Someone whose up for late night talks and cuddling.. someone whose honest.. into rock and can tolerate me for me.... Perferably male..someone whose real...Who won't puss out in the moment of truth.. =/ Someone to be there..
....Alright.. So lately I guess you could say I've been whoring it up.. taking my affection to any guy willing.. and affection not meaning putting out.. but nearly... I'm just lonely. I don't know why though, but I'm the type that has to be loved. Stupid.. I'm seeking out for something that doesn't even exsist or atleast not for me.How Emo Right?.. Ugh.. I'm such an effin loser.. First there was Bill.. when that bottomed out there was Joey, Ricky, Jamie, Shawn, James, and now Chad..All within 2 months. How long will it last? it won't.. and surprisingly it doesn't bother me.. I realized today that I'm only needing one person.. It's so stupid how I'm clinging to anything and anyone.. Now I'm also talking to this guy Dan.. Fellow Rawker.. I met him online but he was in my English class freshman year.. I remet him online and we've been talking ever since.. We hung out at that show that I met Joey at..Dan's also in my first period study hall.. Maybe I'll have something with him.. I guess we'll have to wait and see.. I just want an honest relationship were we can communicate.. Anyone to talk to....=/ Which is surprising because I use to be the one to Lie about anything and everything.. ironic really how desperately I'm reaching for the one thing I use to ignore completely.. Truth =/ Why can't time hurry up and tell what will be..
... Someone whose up for late night talks and cuddling.. someone whose honest.. into rock and can tolerate me for me.... Perferably male..someone whose real...Who won't puss out in the moment of truth.. =/ Someone to be there..
....Alright.. So lately I guess you could say I've been whoring it up.. taking my affection to any guy willing.. and affection not meaning putting out.. but nearly... I'm just lonely. I don't know why though, but I'm the type that has to be loved. Stupid.. I'm seeking out for something that doesn't even exsist or atleast not for me.How Emo Right?.. Ugh.. I'm such an effin loser.. First there was Bill.. when that bottomed out there was Joey, Ricky, Jamie, Shawn, James, and now Chad..All within 2 months. How long will it last? it won't.. and surprisingly it doesn't bother me.. I realized today that I'm only needing one person.. It's so stupid how I'm clinging to anything and anyone.. Now I'm also talking to this guy Dan.. Fellow Rawker.. I met him online but he was in my English class freshman year.. I remet him online and we've been talking ever since.. We hung out at that show that I met Joey at..Dan's also in my first period study hall.. Maybe I'll have something with him.. I guess we'll have to wait and see.. I just want an honest relationship were we can communicate.. Anyone to talk to....=/ Which is surprising because I use to be the one to Lie about anything and everything.. ironic really how desperately I'm reaching for the one thing I use to ignore completely.. Truth =/ Why can't time hurry up and tell what will be..