compliments
again one of the best compliments i've ever heard was said. "christina, it's about time you started getting conceited"... so yes obviously i take wierd things as a compliment, but when hanging out with one of my best friends of 5+ years says it's ok if i start getting really confident after picking on me for the rest of the time he's known me, it's a big compliment. of course like i usually do i talked about mr. artist, but i really don't have any false ideals about it. i would like for that to work out. but i know what it would take for it to happen.. i thought it had before, but it obviously hadn't. i thought he'd realized i was the girl for him, and that he really wants to be with me despite his relationship fears. well i have fears too.. i just always figured i would eventually find someone.. i don't really care if i do now or not. if i never settle down i'll probably still procreate with the aid of someone's genetic material b/c i think my genetic mixture worked out well and i want it to be passed on. well that's the scientific rational.. i know deep down i'd like to have kids on a more simple biological level.. but with or without a partner that still wouldn't happen for some time. i just want to have fun now.. and i would prefer if that fun was within the comfort of a relationship with someone i love. since that isn't going to happen soon, i'll check out if it's possible for me to fall for someone else, or just stay single for a while.
the reason for that compliment to be put up there was because of my quick realization that my profile, with a real current picture of myself attracts lots of guys. i'm not a fan of internet dating. two guys i've met through friendster are the closest i've gotten to it, and they at least could give me the guise of wanting to be friends. i dislike dating in general anyway though. but for now i'll continue flirting until i come upon the circumstance where i'm all about a guy. and then i'll put down what's left of my fantasy boy.
the reason for that compliment to be put up there was because of my quick realization that my profile, with a real current picture of myself attracts lots of guys. i'm not a fan of internet dating. two guys i've met through friendster are the closest i've gotten to it, and they at least could give me the guise of wanting to be friends. i dislike dating in general anyway though. but for now i'll continue flirting until i come upon the circumstance where i'm all about a guy. and then i'll put down what's left of my fantasy boy.