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Well i'm alittle bummed well alot of bummed becasue my cat decided to pee all over my lap top. I just got it for freaken christmas and my cat pee'd on it. SO anyways all the stories i've been writting are gone. Deleted erased. Since they were saved in my lap top and well that won't turn on anymore due to cat pee it's all gone. 100 and something poems/songs gone. Stories i wrote gone. Bummers. I mean i guess my sister could take it back. But what is she going to say.
"My lap top won't start" my sister
"OH why what happened." person
"Um..umm.. i don't know. It just won't start." my sister
"Oh ok. What the hell it smells like piss" person
She couldn't come out and say why becasue well i don't think cat piss is covered in warranty. So i'm screwed. And on different note i need to get off medication all together i mean i don't feel any better, i just twitch now. I took this stupid alegra d crap for my thought to be allergeys and well it made me freak out i started moving, and cuddling my hoody and staring at walls but staring at walls is nothing new. My mind has always pretty blah. I'm so sick of medication that does not work. It's just makeing me even worst i mean its not like i dont already have panic attacks and issues galore now adding the random non help allergey meds i'm going insane. But i'm getting help for problems not related to the meds long story. Lol trust me you'd rather not know. I'm sorry i'm quite a rambleing mood today. Dude i'm so sick of the world really i am. Rumors and all that bull. Blah i'm done belieivng everyone it's like people want to be there for me and make sure i'm alright but then they say things for my well being then make paranoid then i freak and do things i dont want to do. But i do becasue i think lowly of myself blah. lol sounds retardly stupid. yes i know. lol. Alrighty i think that was way to far into my head for the day. So maybe tomorrow i'll continue. But i really am sad all my stories are pissin gone. Gone gone gone. Gone. I wrote this whole story of a diary of a self consumed girl. I was on the second book and now it's gone. Blah. And i had my carninbloodinsuckin story in there, and my freaken one story about another world. Seriously it sucks. Lol. Ok i'm sorry i really am done complaining people in this world have things worst then i do. And i'm complaining over a pointless thing. Sorry but i really am upset. Ok goodbyes. Oh yea might i add i'm done with the human race. Nifty i know, i'm running away from this place when i turn 18 and i'm stepping away from todays bullcrap society. becasue the petty things piss me off. Ok i really am done. Goodbye. Sorry bout the ramble well actually i'm not but i'll pretend i am for the moment anyways. and for another thing for all the dumb children that latch on to peopole that don't even deeply want becasue they are to afraid to be with the one they want to be with. Stop being a wussy and go to the one you want. Blah this world is agravating. and i'm so sick of how everything falls into looks. I dont bleieve in what people look like. I don't think it matters i mean what someone looks like doesn't make up who they are. I mean the comments they recieive may shape them but not their looks. I mean i hate how everyone is so judgemental. I use to care about what i looked like and then one day realized im never going to find myself beautiful cuz im me and i'm going to look at myself tougher then i look at others. So finally i stopped caring. And began to dress in all black my favorite color and stuff. But i just wish other people could know that beauty isn't anything and nobody should be worried about the way they look.
"My lap top won't start" my sister
"OH why what happened." person
"Um..umm.. i don't know. It just won't start." my sister
"Oh ok. What the hell it smells like piss" person
She couldn't come out and say why becasue well i don't think cat piss is covered in warranty. So i'm screwed. And on different note i need to get off medication all together i mean i don't feel any better, i just twitch now. I took this stupid alegra d crap for my thought to be allergeys and well it made me freak out i started moving, and cuddling my hoody and staring at walls but staring at walls is nothing new. My mind has always pretty blah. I'm so sick of medication that does not work. It's just makeing me even worst i mean its not like i dont already have panic attacks and issues galore now adding the random non help allergey meds i'm going insane. But i'm getting help for problems not related to the meds long story. Lol trust me you'd rather not know. I'm sorry i'm quite a rambleing mood today. Dude i'm so sick of the world really i am. Rumors and all that bull. Blah i'm done belieivng everyone it's like people want to be there for me and make sure i'm alright but then they say things for my well being then make paranoid then i freak and do things i dont want to do. But i do becasue i think lowly of myself blah. lol sounds retardly stupid. yes i know. lol. Alrighty i think that was way to far into my head for the day. So maybe tomorrow i'll continue. But i really am sad all my stories are pissin gone. Gone gone gone. Gone. I wrote this whole story of a diary of a self consumed girl. I was on the second book and now it's gone. Blah. And i had my carninbloodinsuckin story in there, and my freaken one story about another world. Seriously it sucks. Lol. Ok i'm sorry i really am done complaining people in this world have things worst then i do. And i'm complaining over a pointless thing. Sorry but i really am upset. Ok goodbyes. Oh yea might i add i'm done with the human race. Nifty i know, i'm running away from this place when i turn 18 and i'm stepping away from todays bullcrap society. becasue the petty things piss me off. Ok i really am done. Goodbye. Sorry bout the ramble well actually i'm not but i'll pretend i am for the moment anyways. and for another thing for all the dumb children that latch on to peopole that don't even deeply want becasue they are to afraid to be with the one they want to be with. Stop being a wussy and go to the one you want. Blah this world is agravating. and i'm so sick of how everything falls into looks. I dont bleieve in what people look like. I don't think it matters i mean what someone looks like doesn't make up who they are. I mean the comments they recieive may shape them but not their looks. I mean i hate how everyone is so judgemental. I use to care about what i looked like and then one day realized im never going to find myself beautiful cuz im me and i'm going to look at myself tougher then i look at others. So finally i stopped caring. And began to dress in all black my favorite color and stuff. But i just wish other people could know that beauty isn't anything and nobody should be worried about the way they look.