the world.
Well my mind has been thinking bout life in general and how everything is so sad. Like people worry about looks and who has the latest trends and whos beautifull whos ugly. But nobody ever really cares about what life truly is. Were so caught up into finding meaning in life that we forget that maybe its not about finding answer its about making a difference helping others. But not helping others so you can get money or something in return but truly doing it becasue of kindness. Not of looking kind but becasue you truly are kind. But there arent very many of them in this world. I started really really thinking about some stuff last week cuz i was bored and laying in bed the whole week so i stated thinking and it finally came to me that I don't believe in god. I believe in spirits of people that died that watch over us and they are our own god. I mean scientists have been proven religions are wrong for years. But the sad thing to me isnt that it might not be real that all relgion may be pretend its that some day in the future nobody will have faith in anything because their logic will destroy it all. It sucks but I guess the stupid saying thats life goes for that. And humans problems are that were so worried of being wrong that we forget about what everyone else feels. So truly if you disagree go ahead tel me I don't mind. i mean were so worried about our thoughts in a situation and we just seem to be so preocupied in bullshit created by humans that we forget that everyone else feels as wel as ourselves.
But though all this random thought i eventually began to think about what i want to do with the rest of my life. and it doesnt invlove being rich and having tons of money even though the world is so based on money that to do a really good deed and help save lives you need money. How dumb is this world? pretty darn dumb in my opioion. BUT thats just my opioion. Anyways... I want to do something that involves saving a soul not saving a life like a doctor but saving a persons soul making them feel wanted like no matter what somebody out there does care.
AND human beings confuse me especially with the whole i dont want to be a looser thing. That everyone thinks. Its stupid cuz every person at one time is in a room with people that dont like them or understand them. I mean it happens get over it. Its truly not a big deal to be disliked once in a while. Not everyone is going to like what one person is about. And some peopole are just going to hate you because they are afraid of you, dont understand you or maybe just think your annoying. But anyways if people just stopped for one second and looked around a room they would notice that theres always that one person that isn't fitting in. and then another room they are in they fit in. And then you begin to realize that everybody everybody has those moments so maybe just maybe its really not that bad. and nobody has the whole world hating them cuz everybody has somebody. And sometimes they have people they dont know they have because they are to afraid that, the one person they care for doesnt care for them. Even though they do. But anyways. Its so confusing. My heads completly ramble blah.
AND human beings dispoint me so badly because its so hard for most people to step away from a crowd. To the point we all become walking clones. And the whole clone thing is so dumb. I mean why be everybody else when you could just be who you are. No matter what. And freak if thats strange then i guess it is. Its just so aggravating that everybody is so caught up into fasion and shit. I mean shoot i wake up put on so old ragady hoody, pants and a pair of shoes and alittle bit of makeup becasue bitchy comments entertain me i dont know guess im so use to them i just make peopole do it. But i mean shoot i shave the back of my head which isnt even that big of a deal but everybody seems to know and make comments and its so dumb becasue me shaving my head does not effect anybody in anyways but they still commment. oh well or like clothes polkadots i guess arent in blah i like my polkadot skirt but people i dont know i mean you dont like something you can say it thats cool but dont be completly like mocking of someone for being what they want to be. Its not like im looking at anyone and saying stop being a fucking clone but regardless of what i dont say things are stil said to me.
BUT I've finally got to this point where i no longer hate anybody. I just hate society cuz thats why were so dumb and retarted and stupid and assholish. i mean dont get me wrong i love ahole people they entertain me very well. but i dont like the stupid aholes i like the aholes that are just yea i dont like you for no reason then giggle and are actually super nice but act alll aholeish because its fun for them giggle dont ask. lol
WOW IM OFFICALLY DONE... THAT WAS KIND OF FUN RAMBLIN ON LIKE THAT. BYE BYE. THANKS FOR READIN MY THOUGHTS.. GIGGLES.. HEHE... FUNNY FUNNY WELL NO BUT YEA. HEHE OK BYE BYE...
But though all this random thought i eventually began to think about what i want to do with the rest of my life. and it doesnt invlove being rich and having tons of money even though the world is so based on money that to do a really good deed and help save lives you need money. How dumb is this world? pretty darn dumb in my opioion. BUT thats just my opioion. Anyways... I want to do something that involves saving a soul not saving a life like a doctor but saving a persons soul making them feel wanted like no matter what somebody out there does care.
AND human beings confuse me especially with the whole i dont want to be a looser thing. That everyone thinks. Its stupid cuz every person at one time is in a room with people that dont like them or understand them. I mean it happens get over it. Its truly not a big deal to be disliked once in a while. Not everyone is going to like what one person is about. And some peopole are just going to hate you because they are afraid of you, dont understand you or maybe just think your annoying. But anyways if people just stopped for one second and looked around a room they would notice that theres always that one person that isn't fitting in. and then another room they are in they fit in. And then you begin to realize that everybody everybody has those moments so maybe just maybe its really not that bad. and nobody has the whole world hating them cuz everybody has somebody. And sometimes they have people they dont know they have because they are to afraid that, the one person they care for doesnt care for them. Even though they do. But anyways. Its so confusing. My heads completly ramble blah.
AND human beings dispoint me so badly because its so hard for most people to step away from a crowd. To the point we all become walking clones. And the whole clone thing is so dumb. I mean why be everybody else when you could just be who you are. No matter what. And freak if thats strange then i guess it is. Its just so aggravating that everybody is so caught up into fasion and shit. I mean shoot i wake up put on so old ragady hoody, pants and a pair of shoes and alittle bit of makeup becasue bitchy comments entertain me i dont know guess im so use to them i just make peopole do it. But i mean shoot i shave the back of my head which isnt even that big of a deal but everybody seems to know and make comments and its so dumb becasue me shaving my head does not effect anybody in anyways but they still commment. oh well or like clothes polkadots i guess arent in blah i like my polkadot skirt but people i dont know i mean you dont like something you can say it thats cool but dont be completly like mocking of someone for being what they want to be. Its not like im looking at anyone and saying stop being a fucking clone but regardless of what i dont say things are stil said to me.
BUT I've finally got to this point where i no longer hate anybody. I just hate society cuz thats why were so dumb and retarted and stupid and assholish. i mean dont get me wrong i love ahole people they entertain me very well. but i dont like the stupid aholes i like the aholes that are just yea i dont like you for no reason then giggle and are actually super nice but act alll aholeish because its fun for them giggle dont ask. lol
WOW IM OFFICALLY DONE... THAT WAS KIND OF FUN RAMBLIN ON LIKE THAT. BYE BYE. THANKS FOR READIN MY THOUGHTS.. GIGGLES.. HEHE... FUNNY FUNNY WELL NO BUT YEA. HEHE OK BYE BYE...