what im feeling
hey i dont think any one will read this cause i said i wasn't gonna update anymore but ooh well i got to get some stuff off my mind. lately i have been talkin to rochelle. i really like her. everything seemed to be goin ok. we are goin to home coming together. i had a plan. its the reason i asked her. i was gonna ask her out at home coming. well now i got a problem. she likes this guy alex. and they kissed today. i kno she likes him. she says she likes me but i dont think i could go through with asking her out knoin she is gonna like him. the only reason she isn't already goin out with him is cause she cant. which really makes me feel like shit. and no matter if we did go out i would always feel like second best. like im her last choice. it was the same way when she was stuck on bryant and gary. i thought i really had a chance this time and now i dont think i do. i hope this message gets read cause everyone wanted to kno what was wrong. well now u kno. well part of it anyways. thats all i have been thinkin of for like the past week and a half. i was really lookin forward to homecoming. even tho there was no guarantee that she would have said yes. and now i feel wierd talkin to her. it bothers me when she talks about him but hey she is happy. i dont kno what else to do. but i guess i have done all i can. well im gonna go i hope u read this rochelle.