Hes......ALIVE!!!!! But not particularly happy.
Right! So, I've neglected my poor LJ account to the point that I wasn't quite sure if it would still be here. Lo and behold, here it is- so here's the latest. As it stands, I'm: A) Looking for a new job, B) Apparently single again C) Considering going back to school full-time, and D) Introspective.
My stint as General Manager of a game store came to a halt rather sooner than I cared for. However, I'm starting to believe that it was a way of God saying, "Hey!! Keep this up and another 10 years will slip by- with you still running a GAME STORE!!!"(Insert thunderclap here).
Good point God.
My relationship with Carmen also ended sooner than I would have liked, but again it may be for the best. After all, if I don't have any intention of getting married any time soon, and I'm not sure if it would be her- am I not just taking away the best years of her life? At least, thats how she feels. Can you truly know enough about someone in a year and a half to discuss the future in regards to marriage, kids, the whole nine? Most people my age apparently do, as evidenced by my peers being -for the most part- married or close to it. I personally can't. I suppose its the feeling I have at my very core that this part of my life is transitory. There has to be something more. Whenever I find myself wherever it is that I feel I'm going, or at least have realized that Hey! this it it, then I can give serious consideration to those things. A house needs a stable foundation to build upon. What would I be building on? 5 years of management experience? A few college credits? The ability to dance?
Am I supposed to recognize the right woman to walk with for the rest of my life when I'm at a perpetual crossroad?
Well, I have come to one realization, and its that I better finish building whatever foundation I have- I'm getting tired of breaking peoples hearts because I love them too much to lie.