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[opiate_junkie]

I found a reason

so when they say
that love
is not a victory march
they are right
love walks hand in
hand
with loneliness
and despair, but also
happiness
it is a cold, sad, broken
beautiful thing
and a world without it
is nothing but death

and then I read
what she wrote to you
jealousy reared its
ugly head
I needed that closeness,
that comfort
as well
and I think I'd like her
but of course to be with you
she'd be beautiful, and smart
and talented
all of which
I am not
I did not know
jealousy
before I knew you

I admire you and
respect you more
than almost
anyone else
and it disappoints me
that I will never
be able to
teach you anything
or tell you
anything
you do not
already know
but you have taught me
so much, already
about music
and patience
and life
and, of course
indirectly
love
I have loved you since
the day we met
and I
will love you
beyond the day
that I die.