read my skin, lover ; crack open my spine
Hullo, world! As this is a fic journal, most of these entries were public, but due to some unsavoury spambots, many of them have been f-locked. Feel free to friend away for the fic, and do drop me a line - I don't bite, unless that's what you're into. Meow.
Obligatory Disclaimer : I own nothing except for my brain.
These are now arranged by (1) series and then (2) very rough universes or (3) by character/pairing.
NO REST FOR THE WICKED
What Paper-Poets Only Write (Hints of Nov/Perrault). A princess, a witch, a cat, the Moon, and the kind of things that happen once the fairy tale's over.
xXxHOLIC ROU
Phantom Limb / Safe as Houses (Doumeki/Himawari gen). From very far away, Himawari deliberately does not watch as her boys go up in flame. Written as an odd bridge between well_ladeedah's " Precipitation" and evil_whimsey's " Sea-deep til doomsday morning".
Phantom Limb // I Wake to Sleep (And Take My Waking Slow) (Doumeki/Himawari gen). A second look at "Safe as Houses". Himawari contemplates silence, still water, and time - but sunflowers are meant to live in the sun.
The Shaking Keeps Me Steady (Doumeki/Himawari gen). A brief snippet of the Doumeki-side of "I Wake to Sleep". His silence has nothing to do with stoicism or strength. It's about not fucking falling apart.
Still Life: Portraits of Sunflowers. A series of Himawari-centric drabbles written for 31_days. Tournesols. All Fires.
Don't They Have Payphones Wherever You Were Last Night (H/D/W, Secret!OT3). Doumeki and Himawari have holiday survival down to an art.
Pearls That Were Her Eyes (Jorougumo/Yaobikuni, aka Spider Lady/Mermaid Girl). A history of love between (near-)immortal beings. Featuring haiku, witty servants, baby-eating priests, ornamental fish ponds, and fluffy angst. Really though, it's a love story. One. Two.
WITCH HUNTER ROBIN
Black Coffee (mid-series, Michael/Robin.) There's always something bitter in the sweet. Office romance, WHR-style, now with plenty of wistful gazes over computer monitors.
TWILIGHT
Not strictly structured to work together, more loosely connected. Begins with little kid silliness among the Black clan, and follows some other members of the Black family besides Jacob, and their take on J/B.
Summertime and the Living is Easy (pre-Twilight, slight dashes of J/B). Bella's first fishing trip. Filled with "the twins being hellions, Jake being a puppy with mud on its paws, Bella being quietly mortified and burying herself in a book, and Charlie and Billy being Completely Clueless."
Gateau (pre-Twilight, Jacob/Bella). An incident involving cake. Birthday fic for seeyouupside.
Two If By Sea (pre-Twilight, Jacob-centric, the Black Family). Jacob learns young what it means to wait for the things you want.
The Fisher King (New Moon/Eclipse, Billy POV, Jacob/Bella). The hardest part of being a parent is realising when you can't do a damn thing at all.
House of the Sun (post-Eclipse, Rachel Black, Jacob/Bella). Jacob manages to teach his big sis a thing or two about forgiveness.
~
Two stories in the same AU verse, the first based on SMeyer's "Being Jacob Black", while the second... disregards "Midnight Sun"? XD
Somewhere I Have Never Traveled (Twilight AU, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Regret, they tell you, is chances not taken. Jacob Black lives and breathes What ifs.
Beyond Any Experience (Twilight AU, Edward/Bella, Edward/Tanya). The Tanya-side of Somewhere I Have Never Traveled. Tanya waits for the day when Edward takes what he wants.
~
A few stories that try to not make Bella suck. My own form of post-Eclipse canon.
The Golden Mean (post-Eclipse, Bella-centric, Edward/Bella, Jacob/Bella). Bella walks down yet another road not taken.
Seven Years (post-Eclipse, Charlie, Bella, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Companion piece to The Golden Mean, Charlie's POV.
This is The Short and the Long of what could have happened after The Golden Mean, but it's by no means definitive. :D
~
Wolf crack pack, with a smidgeon of romance.
5 Crushes Quil Had (and One He Didn't) (pre-Twilight to Eclipse, Quil/everybody XD). More of a list than a fic, rife with sheer goofiness.
We're Howling Forever (New Moon missing moment, Quil, Embry, Jacob/Bella). Because Quil and Embry take their best friend duties very, very seriously. Which means, of course, SHENANIGANS.
JUST KIDDING! (b/w Twilight and New Moon, Jared/Kim). A True Love Story of Epic Proportions... NOT. THIS IS HOW IMPRINTING ACTUALLY GOES DOWN, BITCHES. one. two.
JUST KIDDING extras : Structure of La Push Wolf Pack and Things Jared is No Longer Allowed to Do (General series, La Push Wolf Gang). Severe warnings for crack.
~
Stories in which Edward does not suck. (Who knew!)
Red Apple Falls (Twilight to Eclipse, Edward/Bella). Seven random drabbles, seven ways to fall. Written for {C}{C}katiaguzzardi.
Howl (Eclipse, Edward, Jacob/Bella). A series of fragments. There are many things that Edward wishes he just didn't know.
~
I once called "The Still Hour" the post-apocalyptic future fic that ate my brain, and these other stories just kept eating it. I think SH also had the dubious honour of being the first post-apocalyptic fic in the fandom? XD
The Still Hour (post-post-post-Eclipse, Jacob, Bella). Their love is so dystopian. What love looks like after the end of the world.
The Last Light Breaking (post-post-post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella, the Cullens, Jasper/Alice, OCs). Four missing scenes / extras from The Still Hour.
A Game of Chess (post-Still Hour, Jasper, Bella.) Jasper and Bella wait patiently for the end of the world.
~
Leahfic. Cos she's a fantastic bitch.
Dragonflies (pre-Twilight, kid!Sam/Leah). Comment drabble written in response to
amos_hunter 's adorable kid!Sam/Leah sketches at her LJ.
Little Red (Eclipse, Leah/Bella, Leah/Sam, Jacob/Bella). Leah wakes up on the wrong side of the bed. What else is new. Written for kaiwynn's Uncanon Drabble-a-Thon.
I Want the Ocean (pre-Twilight to Eclipse, Leah/Sam/Emily, hints of Jacob/Bella). Leah-centric drabble set. Cos she'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart.
~
Chiefly Jacob/Bella goodness. A few angsty bits thrown in there, but mostly the feel good stuff.
Engine Heart (New Moon, Jacob/Bella). Jacob can fix pretty much everything, except for the things that actually matter. New Moon missing scene.
Eurydice (New Moon AU, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Jacob is always faithful. So is Bella.
Law of Inertia (New Moon, Jacob/Bella). Bella's a smart girl, really. It's just those big, fundamental truths that pass her by. Birthday fic for anythingbutgrey.
My Baby Shot Me Down (post-Eclipse, Edward/Tanya, Jacob/Bella). Long distance relationships just have a way of working out.
Lost, and By the Wind Mourned (New Moon, Edward/Bella, Jacob/Bella, Charlie, Sam, Billy). The darkest night of Bella Swan's life, from the POV of 5 different men. Link fixed!
The Air (New Moon AU, Jacob/Bella). "Jacob's slow, deep breathing was the only sound in the room - like a lullaby hummed to a child, like the whisper of a rocking chair..."
Pins and Needles (post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella). In which Little Red Riding Hood takes a detour, but eventually meets up with the Wolf.
Cars and Guitars (post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella). Jacob tries to keep driving, as if that's enough to leave the past behind. Funny how that never really works.
~
A not so brief note : Ugggggh, so I wrote an OC called Jenny Sparrow, and my beloved braintwin etzyofi wrote these OCs named Anne and Alan Tillery in her fic " gods that have left you will never grace your home". And things exploded from there.
These stories are our own form of defiance against every Mary Sue-ish, unoriginal "original character" that is one-dimensional, flat out boring, a tool of wish fulfilment, and/or a thinly veiled plot device instead of a real, living, human breathing character. This world, and the many people, couples, families, and huge networks that we've created (which span much farther beyond this meagre of collection of fic, as we have many, many elaborate planning notes and half-finished or unpublished fic) are our babies, closer to us than our bones.
These exist in a weird drifting place between canon and original. I suppose they could be considered as original stories set in the world of La Push, with either main canon Twilight characters (Jake, Sam) taking very minor backgorund roles, minor canon characters taking major roles (Jared, Collin), or original characters taking main roles (Jenny, Anne, Diana). These stories all have a shared history, so they randomly connect and touch off each other. The only thing that really prevents them from being completely severed from Twilight is the concept of the werewolf imprinting.
Anyway. These projects of mine and etzyofi's are written out of nothing but deep and unabiding love - we knew that probably no one would read them except for us. But these are posted up here on the off chance that some of you will come on board with that love, too. We sincerely hope you enjoy them.
TWILIGHT / ORIGINAL
The beginnings of another girl named after a bird, but more of a Sparrow than a Swan.
Ink and Wood (pre-New Moon to Eclipse, Jacob/OC, Jacob/Bella). Years from now, all Jacob will remember of her is : "One girl has a crush on you, but it's just a friendship thing for you.'"
Sepia Coloured Days, Love Song in Pencil, Green and Gold (New Moon, Jacob/Jenny, Billy). 3 ficbits about Jenny Sparrow.
The Colour of Water (probably post-Eclipse, Jenny, Anne). Anne and Jenny friendship fic.
~
A series of loosely connected and mostly chronological fics about all the ways that love can change.
A Different Slant of Light (post-Eclipse, Billy, Jacob/Jenny, Embry/Jenny). It's amazing, really, what a simple change in lighting can do to change Jenny's entire view of the world.
Portraits Drawn in Dust (post-eclipse, Jenny/Embry). At Sam and Emily's wedding, Jenny and Embry find that there's a lot that you can say without words.
Stray Dogs (New Moon to post-Eclipse, Leah/Sam/Emily, Sue/Harry). It starts with a funeral and ends with a wedding, with a graduation in between. Somewhere along that road, Leah learns how to let go.
Halo Round the Moon (post-Eclipse, Jenny/Embry, Diana/Collin). Young love amidst young wolves - now with robots! one. two. three. four. five.
Some Things Last a Long Time (post-Halo, Collin/Diana, Collin/Loki). The highlights and lowlights of a decade in Collin and Diana's lives.
Angels on the Boardwalk (post-Eclipse, (Bella/)Jacob/Anne). Love is less like gravity, more like inertia.
~
One small disconnected piece of a far-ranging future kidfic that trumps the Epilogue of Deathly Hallows.
Sparrow's Fall (post-everything, Theo Tillery/Ruthie Black, Alan Tillery/Jenny Sparrow). Birds return to the nest. A requiem.
Obligatory Disclaimer : I own nothing except for my brain.
These are now arranged by (1) series and then (2) very rough universes or (3) by character/pairing.
NO REST FOR THE WICKED
What Paper-Poets Only Write (Hints of Nov/Perrault). A princess, a witch, a cat, the Moon, and the kind of things that happen once the fairy tale's over.
xXxHOLIC ROU
Phantom Limb / Safe as Houses (Doumeki/Himawari gen). From very far away, Himawari deliberately does not watch as her boys go up in flame. Written as an odd bridge between well_ladeedah's " Precipitation" and evil_whimsey's " Sea-deep til doomsday morning".
Phantom Limb // I Wake to Sleep (And Take My Waking Slow) (Doumeki/Himawari gen). A second look at "Safe as Houses". Himawari contemplates silence, still water, and time - but sunflowers are meant to live in the sun.
The Shaking Keeps Me Steady (Doumeki/Himawari gen). A brief snippet of the Doumeki-side of "I Wake to Sleep". His silence has nothing to do with stoicism or strength. It's about not fucking falling apart.
Still Life: Portraits of Sunflowers. A series of Himawari-centric drabbles written for 31_days. Tournesols. All Fires.
Don't They Have Payphones Wherever You Were Last Night (H/D/W, Secret!OT3). Doumeki and Himawari have holiday survival down to an art.
Pearls That Were Her Eyes (Jorougumo/Yaobikuni, aka Spider Lady/Mermaid Girl). A history of love between (near-)immortal beings. Featuring haiku, witty servants, baby-eating priests, ornamental fish ponds, and fluffy angst. Really though, it's a love story. One. Two.
WITCH HUNTER ROBIN
Black Coffee (mid-series, Michael/Robin.) There's always something bitter in the sweet. Office romance, WHR-style, now with plenty of wistful gazes over computer monitors.
TWILIGHT
Not strictly structured to work together, more loosely connected. Begins with little kid silliness among the Black clan, and follows some other members of the Black family besides Jacob, and their take on J/B.
Summertime and the Living is Easy (pre-Twilight, slight dashes of J/B). Bella's first fishing trip. Filled with "the twins being hellions, Jake being a puppy with mud on its paws, Bella being quietly mortified and burying herself in a book, and Charlie and Billy being Completely Clueless."
Gateau (pre-Twilight, Jacob/Bella). An incident involving cake. Birthday fic for seeyouupside.
Two If By Sea (pre-Twilight, Jacob-centric, the Black Family). Jacob learns young what it means to wait for the things you want.
The Fisher King (New Moon/Eclipse, Billy POV, Jacob/Bella). The hardest part of being a parent is realising when you can't do a damn thing at all.
House of the Sun (post-Eclipse, Rachel Black, Jacob/Bella). Jacob manages to teach his big sis a thing or two about forgiveness.
~
Two stories in the same AU verse, the first based on SMeyer's "Being Jacob Black", while the second... disregards "Midnight Sun"? XD
Somewhere I Have Never Traveled (Twilight AU, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Regret, they tell you, is chances not taken. Jacob Black lives and breathes What ifs.
Beyond Any Experience (Twilight AU, Edward/Bella, Edward/Tanya). The Tanya-side of Somewhere I Have Never Traveled. Tanya waits for the day when Edward takes what he wants.
~
A few stories that try to not make Bella suck. My own form of post-Eclipse canon.
The Golden Mean (post-Eclipse, Bella-centric, Edward/Bella, Jacob/Bella). Bella walks down yet another road not taken.
Seven Years (post-Eclipse, Charlie, Bella, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Companion piece to The Golden Mean, Charlie's POV.
This is The Short and the Long of what could have happened after The Golden Mean, but it's by no means definitive. :D
~
Wolf crack pack, with a smidgeon of romance.
5 Crushes Quil Had (and One He Didn't) (pre-Twilight to Eclipse, Quil/everybody XD). More of a list than a fic, rife with sheer goofiness.
We're Howling Forever (New Moon missing moment, Quil, Embry, Jacob/Bella). Because Quil and Embry take their best friend duties very, very seriously. Which means, of course, SHENANIGANS.
JUST KIDDING! (b/w Twilight and New Moon, Jared/Kim). A True Love Story of Epic Proportions... NOT. THIS IS HOW IMPRINTING ACTUALLY GOES DOWN, BITCHES. one. two.
JUST KIDDING extras : Structure of La Push Wolf Pack and Things Jared is No Longer Allowed to Do (General series, La Push Wolf Gang). Severe warnings for crack.
~
Stories in which Edward does not suck. (Who knew!)
Red Apple Falls (Twilight to Eclipse, Edward/Bella). Seven random drabbles, seven ways to fall. Written for {C}{C}katiaguzzardi.
Howl (Eclipse, Edward, Jacob/Bella). A series of fragments. There are many things that Edward wishes he just didn't know.
~
I once called "The Still Hour" the post-apocalyptic future fic that ate my brain, and these other stories just kept eating it. I think SH also had the dubious honour of being the first post-apocalyptic fic in the fandom? XD
The Still Hour (post-post-post-Eclipse, Jacob, Bella). Their love is so dystopian. What love looks like after the end of the world.
The Last Light Breaking (post-post-post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella, the Cullens, Jasper/Alice, OCs). Four missing scenes / extras from The Still Hour.
A Game of Chess (post-Still Hour, Jasper, Bella.) Jasper and Bella wait patiently for the end of the world.
~
Leahfic. Cos she's a fantastic bitch.
Dragonflies (pre-Twilight, kid!Sam/Leah). Comment drabble written in response to
amos_hunter 's adorable kid!Sam/Leah sketches at her LJ.
Little Red (Eclipse, Leah/Bella, Leah/Sam, Jacob/Bella). Leah wakes up on the wrong side of the bed. What else is new. Written for kaiwynn's Uncanon Drabble-a-Thon.
I Want the Ocean (pre-Twilight to Eclipse, Leah/Sam/Emily, hints of Jacob/Bella). Leah-centric drabble set. Cos she'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart.
~
Chiefly Jacob/Bella goodness. A few angsty bits thrown in there, but mostly the feel good stuff.
Engine Heart (New Moon, Jacob/Bella). Jacob can fix pretty much everything, except for the things that actually matter. New Moon missing scene.
Eurydice (New Moon AU, Jacob/Bella, Edward/Bella). Jacob is always faithful. So is Bella.
Law of Inertia (New Moon, Jacob/Bella). Bella's a smart girl, really. It's just those big, fundamental truths that pass her by. Birthday fic for anythingbutgrey.
My Baby Shot Me Down (post-Eclipse, Edward/Tanya, Jacob/Bella). Long distance relationships just have a way of working out.
Lost, and By the Wind Mourned (New Moon, Edward/Bella, Jacob/Bella, Charlie, Sam, Billy). The darkest night of Bella Swan's life, from the POV of 5 different men. Link fixed!
The Air (New Moon AU, Jacob/Bella). "Jacob's slow, deep breathing was the only sound in the room - like a lullaby hummed to a child, like the whisper of a rocking chair..."
Pins and Needles (post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella). In which Little Red Riding Hood takes a detour, but eventually meets up with the Wolf.
Cars and Guitars (post-Eclipse, Jacob/Bella). Jacob tries to keep driving, as if that's enough to leave the past behind. Funny how that never really works.
~
A not so brief note : Ugggggh, so I wrote an OC called Jenny Sparrow, and my beloved braintwin etzyofi wrote these OCs named Anne and Alan Tillery in her fic " gods that have left you will never grace your home". And things exploded from there.
These stories are our own form of defiance against every Mary Sue-ish, unoriginal "original character" that is one-dimensional, flat out boring, a tool of wish fulfilment, and/or a thinly veiled plot device instead of a real, living, human breathing character. This world, and the many people, couples, families, and huge networks that we've created (which span much farther beyond this meagre of collection of fic, as we have many, many elaborate planning notes and half-finished or unpublished fic) are our babies, closer to us than our bones.
These exist in a weird drifting place between canon and original. I suppose they could be considered as original stories set in the world of La Push, with either main canon Twilight characters (Jake, Sam) taking very minor backgorund roles, minor canon characters taking major roles (Jared, Collin), or original characters taking main roles (Jenny, Anne, Diana). These stories all have a shared history, so they randomly connect and touch off each other. The only thing that really prevents them from being completely severed from Twilight is the concept of the werewolf imprinting.
Anyway. These projects of mine and etzyofi's are written out of nothing but deep and unabiding love - we knew that probably no one would read them except for us. But these are posted up here on the off chance that some of you will come on board with that love, too. We sincerely hope you enjoy them.
TWILIGHT / ORIGINAL
The beginnings of another girl named after a bird, but more of a Sparrow than a Swan.
Ink and Wood (pre-New Moon to Eclipse, Jacob/OC, Jacob/Bella). Years from now, all Jacob will remember of her is : "One girl has a crush on you, but it's just a friendship thing for you.'"
Sepia Coloured Days, Love Song in Pencil, Green and Gold (New Moon, Jacob/Jenny, Billy). 3 ficbits about Jenny Sparrow.
The Colour of Water (probably post-Eclipse, Jenny, Anne). Anne and Jenny friendship fic.
~
A series of loosely connected and mostly chronological fics about all the ways that love can change.
A Different Slant of Light (post-Eclipse, Billy, Jacob/Jenny, Embry/Jenny). It's amazing, really, what a simple change in lighting can do to change Jenny's entire view of the world.
Portraits Drawn in Dust (post-eclipse, Jenny/Embry). At Sam and Emily's wedding, Jenny and Embry find that there's a lot that you can say without words.
Stray Dogs (New Moon to post-Eclipse, Leah/Sam/Emily, Sue/Harry). It starts with a funeral and ends with a wedding, with a graduation in between. Somewhere along that road, Leah learns how to let go.
Halo Round the Moon (post-Eclipse, Jenny/Embry, Diana/Collin). Young love amidst young wolves - now with robots! one. two. three. four. five.
Some Things Last a Long Time (post-Halo, Collin/Diana, Collin/Loki). The highlights and lowlights of a decade in Collin and Diana's lives.
Angels on the Boardwalk (post-Eclipse, (Bella/)Jacob/Anne). Love is less like gravity, more like inertia.
~
One small disconnected piece of a far-ranging future kidfic that trumps the Epilogue of Deathly Hallows.
Sparrow's Fall (post-everything, Theo Tillery/Ruthie Black, Alan Tillery/Jenny Sparrow). Birds return to the nest. A requiem.