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***WARNING*** THE FOLLOWING IS MOSTLY ME COMPLAINING AND BEING VERY DEPRESSED. CONTINUE READING WITH CAUTION. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR COOPERATION.
i'm feeling a little bummed today, and i don't know why. well, i don't know exactly why.
i found out today that my buddy from work actually has an interest in girls (this is unusual because i thought he only cared about weed). he's having fun with one girl from work, while another girl from work has a major crush on him. when did my friend grow up and start caring more for the opposite sex then his drug addiction? of course i feel bad for both girls. i feel bad for the one he's 'dating' because she's young and has no idea what she's getting herself into, but i mostly feel bad for the girl with the innocent crush. no one deserves to have their good friend date the guy they like, which brings me to my other possible reason for such self-loathing feelings.
i've been feeling rather guilty lately about tim. me and lindsay were friends before i even knew who tim was. sure, they broke up long before me and tim were even hanging out, and linds did sleep with this guy she knew i had a thing for, and linds and i were on our way out as friends, but does that give me the right to go out with her ex? i'm thinking not, and i feel like shite about it. i don't know what to do though, because i really like tim and i don't wanna give him up just because she might still have feelings for him, when he doesn't like her anymore. i just don't know anymore. one thing is for sure, she'll never talk to me again as soon as she finds out about me and him.
another reason, is of course mike. what else, right? i guess it's just me, but i feel like he doesn't give a damn about me anymore, and that hurts. even if we aren't going out anymore, i still care about him. he's my best friend, but i feel like he's slowly trying to push me away. i suppose i should just talk to him about it. he can be a rational person when he wants to be.
well that's enough ranting and bitching for one night...
i'm feeling a little bummed today, and i don't know why. well, i don't know exactly why.
i found out today that my buddy from work actually has an interest in girls (this is unusual because i thought he only cared about weed). he's having fun with one girl from work, while another girl from work has a major crush on him. when did my friend grow up and start caring more for the opposite sex then his drug addiction? of course i feel bad for both girls. i feel bad for the one he's 'dating' because she's young and has no idea what she's getting herself into, but i mostly feel bad for the girl with the innocent crush. no one deserves to have their good friend date the guy they like, which brings me to my other possible reason for such self-loathing feelings.
i've been feeling rather guilty lately about tim. me and lindsay were friends before i even knew who tim was. sure, they broke up long before me and tim were even hanging out, and linds did sleep with this guy she knew i had a thing for, and linds and i were on our way out as friends, but does that give me the right to go out with her ex? i'm thinking not, and i feel like shite about it. i don't know what to do though, because i really like tim and i don't wanna give him up just because she might still have feelings for him, when he doesn't like her anymore. i just don't know anymore. one thing is for sure, she'll never talk to me again as soon as she finds out about me and him.
another reason, is of course mike. what else, right? i guess it's just me, but i feel like he doesn't give a damn about me anymore, and that hurts. even if we aren't going out anymore, i still care about him. he's my best friend, but i feel like he's slowly trying to push me away. i suppose i should just talk to him about it. he can be a rational person when he wants to be.
well that's enough ranting and bitching for one night...