This is not a post to be mean, it's probably naive to try anyway, but that's ok. A very wise person once told me that usually when normal people get negative reactions from their behaviors, they change them. This is something I have found (and have been told) I am deficient of and it is very obvious you are too. You repeat the same patterns of blaming everyone else aside from your frequent woe-is-me attention cries that are obviously not borne out of honest introspection but just one more method of trying to get sympathy and attention. You repeat the same behavior that doesn't work and leave you fucked and others either fucked or angry over and over again from group to group never changing anything but the faces that surround you. You constantly blame them then request sympathy and cry out "NOTHING EVER GOES MY WAY" without ever honestly looking or inquiring as to why that is. You can reply that I don't know you, that I don't know what's going on, and whatever other write-off justifications that allow you to feel alright about your behavior and further put off changing what is necessary to end the patterns, but all that will get you is temporary anger at me and repitition eventually of the same things. I have seen nothing but these same patterns since I met you and, personally, I think that shows something. When it happens once, maybe a couple times, maybe it's the other factors, but when it's constant and consistent than you have to look inside and look what you are doing and how you are behaving and especially VIEWING the situations.
PLEASE do not take this as me saying "Jessica you are a horrible fuck up," because I don't think that. I just think if you ever want to put an end to these cycles and the problems they create, you need to honestly examine what fuels them, your role in that and don't do so alone, ask people and try to get to the truth instead of everytime something goes wrong just saying "INSERT NAME is a bastard and deserves to die and now I'm alone and it's INSERT NAME's fault"
I was once that INSERT NAME and I bought what you were saying and I don't doubt some others do too, but once I got to be an observer and I started to see the same lines repeated with different names things started to become a little clearer and a little different and maybe you should see that too.
PLEASE do not take this as me saying "Jessica you are a horrible fuck up," because I don't think that. I just think if you ever want to put an end to these cycles and the problems they create, you need to honestly examine what fuels them, your role in that and don't do so alone, ask people and try to get to the truth instead of everytime something goes wrong just saying "INSERT NAME is a bastard and deserves to die and now I'm alone and it's INSERT NAME's fault"
I was once that INSERT NAME and I bought what you were saying and I don't doubt some others do too, but once I got to be an observer and I started to see the same lines repeated with different names things started to become a little clearer and a little different and maybe you should see that too.
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