a revelation
i know some people are going to be really mad, but i read aarons journal again. i know i porlly shouldn't have, according to some people, but i had to. i don't hate him. i really don't i don't wanna be his bezt friend, but i don't want to be his enemy either. i just want us to be cool. because, where we don't work as a couple, we're good as friends. he makes me laugh, and we have a good time. he needs to stop listening to the hip hop all the time, and start listening to some soulfly again, but he's a cool guy. i don't care if people get mad at me for saying that, but its true. he didn't do a whole lot wrong. yeah, he kept saying he was going to come see me and never did, but i understand why he didn't. i just wish he had. i know its scary going to meet someone for the first time, i really really know. but you never know what will come out of it. look what i got out of it. and i'm still a little hurt that he didn't at least try to talk to me or come see me when he was in PA. that made me upset, because i did want to see him.
with that out of the way, i also want to say that i really miss ellie. i'm still hurt over the fact that she can't be happy for me and kissed my ex-bf. but i can move on. ellie and i had a really good time together, and i really don't understand why she thinks that i'm "quant" now, just because i got married. i'm still the same person, i'm just not looking for anyone now. i don't understand where she's coming from on that and i don't understand how she thinks i don't care about her. it really makes no sense to me. but i figure, if she wants to be my friend, then she will make contact with me.
artie is coming back from bragg tonite. we're leaving here tomorrow morning to go take posession of the house. i'll try to take a couple pix when everything is all done in the house and post them. after tonight, i don't know when i'll beable to update again. we're gonna try to get the internet up and running asap, but i don't know when that will be. but i'm sure eveyone will know when i start posting again. :)
and i have to add....
i heart airborne. :)
with that out of the way, i also want to say that i really miss ellie. i'm still hurt over the fact that she can't be happy for me and kissed my ex-bf. but i can move on. ellie and i had a really good time together, and i really don't understand why she thinks that i'm "quant" now, just because i got married. i'm still the same person, i'm just not looking for anyone now. i don't understand where she's coming from on that and i don't understand how she thinks i don't care about her. it really makes no sense to me. but i figure, if she wants to be my friend, then she will make contact with me.
artie is coming back from bragg tonite. we're leaving here tomorrow morning to go take posession of the house. i'll try to take a couple pix when everything is all done in the house and post them. after tonight, i don't know when i'll beable to update again. we're gonna try to get the internet up and running asap, but i don't know when that will be. but i'm sure eveyone will know when i start posting again. :)
and i have to add....
i heart airborne. :)