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My horoscope:
"You believe you know what you want to do. After all, you gave it a lot of thought before you made up your mind. But reality isn't necessarily cooperating; it's as if the universe is overriding your decision for no apparent reason. Now you must live with the gap between your desires and your current situation. Don't be too concerned; the conflict will resolve, but it may take several days.
Only several days? What a relief! Because that gap between my desires and my situation has been dragging on for forty-two years now.
I read over a few pages of the WIP, now titled Godlight. And. It. SUCKS. Imagine Sam Kinnison screeching "SUUUCKS!" at top volume, that's the degree of suckage we are talking here. Oh lord how it sucks. Nothing has sucked this much since the crack in the Betty's window...since the last presidential election...since my first marriage. By the time I tacked on the place-holder ending (just so's I could say it was done) the thing had evolved so absolutely that the entire beginning is going to need not just revised but re-invisioned. Which I don' wanna.
It's going to be really hard to "just" read this without "just" setting fire to it, sigh.
Fortunately I'm going to be so busy with shopping, and laundry, and birthday cooking, and stuff , that for at least the next couple of days I have an excuse not to look at it again. Maybe if I eat a billion vitamin Bs it'll look better later. (Vitamin BS, better still.)
Another good thing...the weather is glorious. Watch me fold laundry without being blinded by the sweat running into my eyes. Joy! And the drier weather must be killing the mold because I can breathe!
No matter what else life hands me, I find breathing is always a big plus.
"You believe you know what you want to do. After all, you gave it a lot of thought before you made up your mind. But reality isn't necessarily cooperating; it's as if the universe is overriding your decision for no apparent reason. Now you must live with the gap between your desires and your current situation. Don't be too concerned; the conflict will resolve, but it may take several days.
Only several days? What a relief! Because that gap between my desires and my situation has been dragging on for forty-two years now.
I read over a few pages of the WIP, now titled Godlight. And. It. SUCKS. Imagine Sam Kinnison screeching "SUUUCKS!" at top volume, that's the degree of suckage we are talking here. Oh lord how it sucks. Nothing has sucked this much since the crack in the Betty's window...since the last presidential election...since my first marriage. By the time I tacked on the place-holder ending (just so's I could say it was done) the thing had evolved so absolutely that the entire beginning is going to need not just revised but re-invisioned. Which I don' wanna.
It's going to be really hard to "just" read this without "just" setting fire to it, sigh.
Fortunately I'm going to be so busy with shopping, and laundry, and birthday cooking, and stuff , that for at least the next couple of days I have an excuse not to look at it again. Maybe if I eat a billion vitamin Bs it'll look better later. (Vitamin BS, better still.)
Another good thing...the weather is glorious. Watch me fold laundry without being blinded by the sweat running into my eyes. Joy! And the drier weather must be killing the mold because I can breathe!
No matter what else life hands me, I find breathing is always a big plus.