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I feel so drained and lifeless. I'm sick and tired of fighting with Jason, and at times I am sick and fucking tired of Jason himself. I want to let go in ways, I can see that it isn't what it used to be, but I am not just ready. Today he said we are over, our friendship altogether is over, but as per usual he took it back. And, at the time, I didn't really feel any regret at the idea. Maybe, if he is so ready to throw it away, he doesn't really want to be with me. I don't know, I just feel if someone can be that violent and cruel towards someone else, that they really, truely don't love them. I just don't know anymore, I guess.