It's all in my head...

[opheliachoking]

So I'm down here in the basement with Will. All of my classes for today were canecelled, lucky me, and I don't have anywhere to be until tonight at 730. Will doesn't have class again til 5, so he's chillin with me til then... so yayness. he's studying, I'm killing time. He keeps feeding me songs thru his headphones. My roomate is down here too

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[cocainesmile]

Dude..I'm seriously getting tired of reading your journal and hearing how you talk about "us" all like this. You know we all love and care for you and want you to be happy, and that feeling should be likewise and mutual. I just wish that you would stop calling us your "friends" in your livejournal (as if we don't care about you)...because you know we are all gonna read this. This stuff you say should be wrote in your personal journal...not in an online journal that you know we are all gonna read! I'm sorry you feel like we haven't been there for you and I know no excuse is gonna satisify what you are feeling towards us right now, so I'm just not gonna make one. But when is the last time you've asked about anything that has happened in our lives? We have lives too ya know. Instead of getting mad at us for not being there for you, why don't you try to be there for us? Friendship is a reciprical identity walked on a two way street. You can't get mad at us when we don't do what you want us do. It hurts how you slander "us (the ones

[opheliachoking]

Okay, look, not to sound like the "bitch" that I'm for some reason being portrayed as these days, but if you really don't want to know how I feel or what I'm thinking, then don't read my journal. I don't have time for a "personal journal." This IS my personal journal. I give others the choice to read it or not. I offered you the link, but I didn't tell you you had to read it. It's your free will, there's no gun to your head here. And I think we both know that if I were pissed about shit that you were writing about, you'd be telling me the same thing. All that aside, I feel better now.

You can have your PERSONAL journal and your FREE speech

[cocainesmile]

Okay, look, you have every right to vent, and I understand that you use this journal as your place to do that, but I would NEVER under any circumstance classify you as just a "friend". By saying that, you act like we don't care about you, when I very much indeed do, and feel that I have always been there for you, as a "friend" to talk to. And when I'm included in your "friend" classification, that was like a slap in the face. I know that I might not physically be there always as a shoulder for you to cry on, but I have always been willing to talk to you, care about you, and comfort you. I don't care if you are mad at the rest of the crew, but don't include me in your anger. You know I am not a confrontational person, but I am not going to let you just bash me like that. And perhaps I won't read your journal anymore, since I am merely just your "friend". Anyway, I am not mad at you, but I just wish you would think before you make your snide little comments and how they are going to affect the group as a whole- whether WE choose to

Re: You can have your PERSONAL journal and your FREE speech

[opheliachoking]

*rolls eyes* you know, the sad thing is that we're fucking arguing through fucking livejournal over something I wrote... and something I felt. I guess I know better than that. You're right, I'm a shitty friend, I'm wrong, I have no right to feel that way. What can I do to make up for my high school drama shit?? I can't buy fucking Tumbleweed THIS going around since the fucker burned down.... :) *I swear I had nothing to do with that.....* I honestly think we all (myself included) just need to grow the fuck up and remember that we're not at North Bullitt anymore.