"Linger on in your pale blue eyes..."
I discovered the velvet underground last night. I'm in love now. It's not angry, it's not sad, it's somewhat political, and it doesn't really relate to too much of my current situation. A great escape.
I am gradually starting to accept things as they are. I know that there is seemingly nothing that can be done, though this situation is so damned wrong. It is truly a knife to the heart to know some of the truth now. That maybe she never really did feel the same for me. That's a stunning revalation, and it kills me. I need to move on. Gabrielle is really helping me out a lot. She's a very calming influence. Haven't really talked to Lisa any... she doesn't really seem to be interested in talking anymore, which at this point is just as well.
So I'm not going home til Spring break in Mid March.. which doesn't sound like much, but it's a vast improvement for me. Jerod is going to come down and stay the night with me and keep me company. I'm so lonely right now, and it'll be nice to have him around to cheer me up and keep me smiling like he tends to do.
Jason is seriously thinking about dating me again. The prospect is nice, there's security there. I know Jason could make me happy. He has for so long and so many times. On the flip side, I'm wondering if he just wants to parade me around in front of Billie and Hank. I just don't know. I want to talk to him about it.. but he's so short tempered and sad right now. I don't want to make that worse. So I'll wait.
I really am looking forward to Jerod coming down here. I think it'll really give me a boost, make me smile a bit. I'd like to talk to Smith. Haven't seen him on lately. Oh well.. no biggie.
I am gradually starting to accept things as they are. I know that there is seemingly nothing that can be done, though this situation is so damned wrong. It is truly a knife to the heart to know some of the truth now. That maybe she never really did feel the same for me. That's a stunning revalation, and it kills me. I need to move on. Gabrielle is really helping me out a lot. She's a very calming influence. Haven't really talked to Lisa any... she doesn't really seem to be interested in talking anymore, which at this point is just as well.
So I'm not going home til Spring break in Mid March.. which doesn't sound like much, but it's a vast improvement for me. Jerod is going to come down and stay the night with me and keep me company. I'm so lonely right now, and it'll be nice to have him around to cheer me up and keep me smiling like he tends to do.
Jason is seriously thinking about dating me again. The prospect is nice, there's security there. I know Jason could make me happy. He has for so long and so many times. On the flip side, I'm wondering if he just wants to parade me around in front of Billie and Hank. I just don't know. I want to talk to him about it.. but he's so short tempered and sad right now. I don't want to make that worse. So I'll wait.
I really am looking forward to Jerod coming down here. I think it'll really give me a boost, make me smile a bit. I'd like to talk to Smith. Haven't seen him on lately. Oh well.. no biggie.