New Schedule?
I've been feeling better lately. I'm not cured but I'm feeling better. May be temporary but it's nice.
For the past years since the UCA incident I've been getting up late. Noon to 2pm. It was always hard for me to wake up because of depression, and, if you know what my house is like, you could understand how shitty I feel. I just feel useless. I hate that house and sleeping all day kept me from having to deal with it for too long.
So, how have I overcome this? Well... I haven't. I'm at my mom's house. It's got space and a nice tv and a laptop that I can use wherever I want. Freedom. I feel like I have potential. Potential that I can make my day really nice. It's all about the space. I feel so claustrophobic at my house with it being so cramped and cluttered. Bob just got that promotion at work which brings with it a nice raise. That gives me hope. We might be able to move before the end of the year... or at least the beginning of the next.
And what have I been doing exactly that's making me feel better? Well, I've set my cellphone to go off at 8am. One of my big aversions to getting up early is that most alarm clocks have alarms that piss me off. Shrill beeps. I've had only one alarm clock that I actually liked and in fact I reeeeeally liked it. It has a low soothing tone and when it goes off is starts out low and gradually gets louder. Nice way to wake up. Back to topic. I've set my phone to go off at 8 and I've chosen a nice ring tone that is classical strings music. It's pretty nice to wake up to. So, for most of this week I've gotten up at 8 or 9... even though I'm going to bed at around 2am lol. I'm becoming a bit of a morning person and a night owl at the same time. Weird, huh? I hope I can keep it up when I go home on Sunday.
For the past years since the UCA incident I've been getting up late. Noon to 2pm. It was always hard for me to wake up because of depression, and, if you know what my house is like, you could understand how shitty I feel. I just feel useless. I hate that house and sleeping all day kept me from having to deal with it for too long.
So, how have I overcome this? Well... I haven't. I'm at my mom's house. It's got space and a nice tv and a laptop that I can use wherever I want. Freedom. I feel like I have potential. Potential that I can make my day really nice. It's all about the space. I feel so claustrophobic at my house with it being so cramped and cluttered. Bob just got that promotion at work which brings with it a nice raise. That gives me hope. We might be able to move before the end of the year... or at least the beginning of the next.
And what have I been doing exactly that's making me feel better? Well, I've set my cellphone to go off at 8am. One of my big aversions to getting up early is that most alarm clocks have alarms that piss me off. Shrill beeps. I've had only one alarm clock that I actually liked and in fact I reeeeeally liked it. It has a low soothing tone and when it goes off is starts out low and gradually gets louder. Nice way to wake up. Back to topic. I've set my phone to go off at 8 and I've chosen a nice ring tone that is classical strings music. It's pretty nice to wake up to. So, for most of this week I've gotten up at 8 or 9... even though I'm going to bed at around 2am lol. I'm becoming a bit of a morning person and a night owl at the same time. Weird, huh? I hope I can keep it up when I go home on Sunday.