Eh
Well its been a long time since i wrote anything. I just figured i had somethings worth writing about today. I have those stupid inspections coming in an hour or 2. I hope i dont get evicted haha. The other thing is, my grand mom died last night. My feeligns on this are very strange. I have barely seen the woman since i was like 12. She never made much of an effort to be a grandmother to me or my sister or any of her other grandkids. Still, its hard to lose your last grandparent. I guess i kinda feel angry at her for leaving with out ever really giving a damn. At the same time, i feel sort of bad for never being the one to initiate contact with her. She was always the grown up though. I feel like it should have been her to want to talk to me. Then again, i also am just upset that i will never get a chance to talk to her again. Even though we never did, we could have ya know? She did suffer her last few months so atleast she is in a better place now. Despite everything i feel about her, theres going to be this void that i guess everyone experiences losing a grand parent. But...then again, i think ive always had that void.