I want to shoot myself
So friday night was really fun........got buzzed, made out with justin, made plans to go out again saturday......but he had other stuff to do. So instead I went out with the posse and got trashed in the Neu. And Matt and I started making out again.
THIS IS ONLY BECAUSE I WAS DRUNK.
He took me back to my room, and I fucking hooked up with the guy that's been calling me a slut and making my life miserable for the past 2 weeks. And afterwards, he was just like "I'm glad we're friends" and he fell asleep.
WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with me it's like I enjoy abuse and taking everything from everyone and all I really wanted was another kiss from justin this fucking sucks fucking sucks fucking sucks I feel so dirty and I want to shoot myself.
I hate it.
THIS IS ONLY BECAUSE I WAS DRUNK.
He took me back to my room, and I fucking hooked up with the guy that's been calling me a slut and making my life miserable for the past 2 weeks. And afterwards, he was just like "I'm glad we're friends" and he fell asleep.
WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with me it's like I enjoy abuse and taking everything from everyone and all I really wanted was another kiss from justin this fucking sucks fucking sucks fucking sucks I feel so dirty and I want to shoot myself.
I hate it.