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If I ever look through the past, I'm always confounded and confused. If you had just pulled closer to me from the beginning and were there for me emotionally. If you had wanted to work things and be by my side. You only remember you want to be by my side when I was gone and away from you. When I am there for you, you put me down and drive me away. You never gave our relationship a chance and to flourish. I wasn't sure why you wanted to do that and walk away from our connection when we had a strong bond. You just always wanted to destroy and break that bond. You could have built this to be a beautiful lasting bond where we worked hard through everything instead of a traumatic longterm bond where we can't be together due to emotional pain and trauma. It was mostly you making those choices. Did you ever forget about me for even one day? Why couldn't you have chosen to be with me and work hard through everything with me with me as your best friend right from the jump?