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Things have been messed up for me that long. Yes, before even the one we shall not name. I never did quite get over that, did I? Is there any reason why considering it seemed like a mismatch? I don't know. I almost want to say something. I don't know what to say though other than I'm fucked up. I don't know if I could go back if I would have just stayed with you. I don't know if I would have been kinder or done things differently. That I don't know. I'm not sure he was ever really rooting for me though. Sometimes he blamed me for my own misfortunes. I just felt like that was my last chance to have someone.