*SIGH*
I went to sleep at just after 2 this morning. I then promptly woke up, without any reason, at 6:30. As soon as I reached conciousness, my mind went into music mode. It will not get the stupid recital music out. I laid in bed for an hour trying to go back to sleep since my alarm wasn't set until 8:30/9:00. But that backfired since all I could do was think my music. So now, I'm watching the sun rise, getting really nervous about my recital, even more nervous about my dress rehearsal (today), and wishing that school would just be over. I try and keep in mind that I'm supposed to be enjoying this (thinks Avenue Q's "I wish I could go back to college"), but it's really hard to.
Oh and I had a realization yesterday. Opera does not grab me like it should if I'm to make a career out of it. Music in general yes, but opera per se? no. So I don't know what it is I'm going to do, but at this point, I'm looking at stuff outside of opera. I still want to sing/perform, but that particular genre doesn't grab me like it should. Now that doesn't mean I won't ever do opera if I can get a gig that way. But... We'll see in a few years. But for now... well... I'm keeping my options open.
Alright, off to try and study my music some more. There is love for all!
Oh and I had a realization yesterday. Opera does not grab me like it should if I'm to make a career out of it. Music in general yes, but opera per se? no. So I don't know what it is I'm going to do, but at this point, I'm looking at stuff outside of opera. I still want to sing/perform, but that particular genre doesn't grab me like it should. Now that doesn't mean I won't ever do opera if I can get a gig that way. But... We'll see in a few years. But for now... well... I'm keeping my options open.
Alright, off to try and study my music some more. There is love for all!