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today has sucked royally! not only did a sucky event take place, but i feel humiliated. long story short, there was someone i genuinely liked, he liked me, then just seemed to stop. having several friends say, "no, he really does like you", i asked him to do something. not only did he not respond when i asked, but he then lied about being busy. i'm surprised. we really really seemed to like eachother. i feel foolish. i feel like this was completely a one-sided crush. if anything, this will give me great motivation and subtext for some of the songs on my recital. i've had this mini day dream since i was really little that after my recital, someone i really cared about would be there, with a bouquet of yellow roses, and tell me he thought i was amazing. the truth is, i am nobody to anyone. i am a genuine and goodhearted person. i just wish someone would see me.