Jan 26, 2007 22:56
i don't know what to do right now. and i am uber TO'd cus i can't find the slam i wrote last year and i looked like EVERYWHERE. what are my feelings right now? i'm confused. i miss steven and i feel sick.
I am out here studying stones
Trying to learn to be less alive
Using all of my will
To keep very still
Still even on the inside
I've cut all of the pertinent wires
So my eyes can't make that connection
I am holding my breath
I am feigning my death
When I'm looking in your direction
It's a skill I'd hoped to abandon
When I got out on the open road
But any more pent up emotion
And I think I'm gonna explode
There's never been an endeavor so strange
As trying to slow the blood in my veins
To keep my face blank