What happened to that girl I knew... ?
Alright, so lately I have't been happy at all. I can't seen to put a smile on my face what so ever. It just won't happen. Anything can make me cry so easliy. I hardly get to see my friends anymore and it's killing me. I use to be so happy, having my friends with me all the time. But now, its rare for me to hang out with them. And my boyfriend and me aren't that close anymore. Something's really wrong in our realtionship. All we do is fight, and I'm always the one whos hurt so bad. We fight about everylittle thing. We use to be happy together, but now .. idk. I can't remember the last day we went without fighting, or anything. I think these are the 2 things that have a very great impact on why I am how I am. Why I am nevr happy and why you hardly ever see me smiling anymore. Thursday was 6th months for me and my boyfriend, and he wouldn't even talk to me because i talked to another boy. I guess I'm just that much of a horrible girlfriend. And i really truely honestly miss my friends. I've decided, that I'm going to start hanging out with them more, start chosing friends first. Friends will always be there for me, and they always have. And to be honest, I don't know how much longer my boyfriend will be there for. Him and I are falling farhter apart each day. Theres nothing I can do anymore. Everything thats happening in my life, i feel as if it's getting to the point were I can't help it. I can officaly say, I'm depressed. Things that once made me happy, can't anymore. I just want to be happy. I just want someone to make me smile. Please anyone help. And I'm looking forward to spring break, being able to spend it with my friends. I pray, that this might help me. But I'm not sure.
Not like nayone cares about all that, but still.