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I’ve been choking on these feelings for three and a half weeks now. I don’t want to talk about them with people who think they know better and I don’t even want to talk about them with people who have been there.

But I forced myself to tell my therapist and I forced myself to tell my husband, because the people who can keep me safe need to know. And in doing so, it alleviates some of the pressure.

I feel like I’m damaging him the longer this goes on. I’m the world’s worst mother and the guilt is overwhelming.