it's a change
From the moment I told Carlos I was pregnant, he's been with me. Hathor Rising didn't tour when AJ was pregnant with Izzy, so he and I had the chance to go through every step together. There were a few times, of course. I had a few location shoots, and he had work do to back in LA, but we've been so luck to do it all together. Once Elena was born, he got up just as much as I did to get her for middle of the night feedings and I got used to waking up and seeing him rocking her in the nursery.
I'm glad they're back out on the road, as much as I miss him. Life doesn't stop just because a baby is born, you know. Life changes, but it doesn't stop. But it's still a switch. The first night, Rowan stayed in their room here, just to help me through the adjustment. Right now, we're on a schedule where I bring Elena with me to set and Rowan comes by and gets her. Usually while I'm in the makeup chair.
And, I'm adjusting to being alone at night again.
My bouts of insomnia have got me listening to this book that I didn't expect to like. I grabbed it because a friend recommended it and the way it started, I kind of wanted to wring the protagonist's neck. But as the story has gone on, I'm completely sucked in to life in Hollywood as McCarthyism was taking root. It frightens me really how much nothing has changed.
But the part of this book that is so beautiful, that keeps hope floating, is the earnest adoration the teenage main character has for Ingrid Bergman. I know what's coming. I know she's going to have to face Ingrid's downfall. But the hope she has in her idol is just ... it's endearing and tender and reminds me of what it's like to be sitting on the porch, leafing through magazines, dreaming of a glittering world.
I'm glad they're back out on the road, as much as I miss him. Life doesn't stop just because a baby is born, you know. Life changes, but it doesn't stop. But it's still a switch. The first night, Rowan stayed in their room here, just to help me through the adjustment. Right now, we're on a schedule where I bring Elena with me to set and Rowan comes by and gets her. Usually while I'm in the makeup chair.
And, I'm adjusting to being alone at night again.
My bouts of insomnia have got me listening to this book that I didn't expect to like. I grabbed it because a friend recommended it and the way it started, I kind of wanted to wring the protagonist's neck. But as the story has gone on, I'm completely sucked in to life in Hollywood as McCarthyism was taking root. It frightens me really how much nothing has changed.
But the part of this book that is so beautiful, that keeps hope floating, is the earnest adoration the teenage main character has for Ingrid Bergman. I know what's coming. I know she's going to have to face Ingrid's downfall. But the hope she has in her idol is just ... it's endearing and tender and reminds me of what it's like to be sitting on the porch, leafing through magazines, dreaming of a glittering world.