cycles of time
God, it was ten years ago ... it doesn't feel that long, honestly. But ten years ago, Gil showed up in the camp and asked me to marry him all over again. And you know what, if I had the chance to go back in time and talk to my younger self, I'd tell her to go for it. Yes, we crashed and burned. But we're still friends. We still care about each other. And I learned a very crucial lesson about giving up a part of yourself for someone else. There's a difference between making sacrifices and sacrificing yourself. That I didn't know. And I do now.
Ten years later, I'm divorced, no where near Vegas, and enjoying a life I never thought I'd lead. And, I have a proposition in front of me. No, not a proposal. It's an interesting one, one that I'll admit I've thought a lot about for a very long time. What ifs are an incredible turn on. But the question is, when does a what if become a we should have done this and stopped being stupid.
So. That's what I'm thinking about while I sit on my porch, watching the sun set. I did talk to Gil today. I mentioned to him what I'm being cryptic about here. He laughed for five minutes and then said if it worked out, it would be worth it for me.
He's a good man. And I'm glad we could split up before we forgot how much we care about each other.
Ten years later, I'm divorced, no where near Vegas, and enjoying a life I never thought I'd lead. And, I have a proposition in front of me. No, not a proposal. It's an interesting one, one that I'll admit I've thought a lot about for a very long time. What ifs are an incredible turn on. But the question is, when does a what if become a we should have done this and stopped being stupid.
So. That's what I'm thinking about while I sit on my porch, watching the sun set. I did talk to Gil today. I mentioned to him what I'm being cryptic about here. He laughed for five minutes and then said if it worked out, it would be worth it for me.
He's a good man. And I'm glad we could split up before we forgot how much we care about each other.