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So I pretty much discovered why Ianto hasn't been talking to me for the past few days. I found the shirt I was wearing when the Weevil ambushed us the other day and I noticed that the blood and slash marks were all concentrated around the abdomen. And then I remembered the conversation we'd had on our wedding day about how if we were really going to start a family, I'd have to stay out of the field because if I died while I was pregnant...well, I'd come back, but not...
Anyway, I brought the shirt to Ianto and asked why we still had it. We usually incinerate my clothes after they get damaged like that (Well, except the coat. Always try to fix the coat!). He's having second thoughts. He doesn't think I'll be able to stay out of danger, stay and coordinate from the Hub while my team is out putting their lives at risk. I was going to argue with him. I mean, I wouldn't risk the life of our child and how could he think I would. But then he gave me that knowing look and I don't know. I don't know if I could send him out into danger knowing I couldn't be there to protect him. What if I lose him?
I don't know if we can really do this.
Anyway, I brought the shirt to Ianto and asked why we still had it. We usually incinerate my clothes after they get damaged like that (Well, except the coat. Always try to fix the coat!). He's having second thoughts. He doesn't think I'll be able to stay out of danger, stay and coordinate from the Hub while my team is out putting their lives at risk. I was going to argue with him. I mean, I wouldn't risk the life of our child and how could he think I would. But then he gave me that knowing look and I don't know. I don't know if I could send him out into danger knowing I couldn't be there to protect him. What if I lose him?
I don't know if we can really do this.