It's been forever
But to be frank, I've had everyone and everything up my arse for so long... I was tired of sharing. I've had a camera in my face or a microphone next to my head I didn't have any goddamn private time.
Touring is a bit of a respite because they aren't quite as constantly in my way. TransCo made sure of that. But when I'm out and about I miss Marshall and Eddie. We Skype on the regular but it's not the same. I never quite missed anyone like this when I was away from them. Which is going to make a lot of people feel like shit but... They feel like my home. And I know it makes me come off as a foolish old man. I've heard as much. From a lot of people. Social media is split in thirds, one part thinks we're adorable, one part thinks I'm a fool, and the other part thinks we're trash that's a waste of their time.
And then there's the people I actually give a damn about. Mum has actually been incredibly supportive, and her face whenever I show her pictures with Meatball... the woman doesn't care that there's not a lick of Malone DNA in that boy, she loves him as if he were. Dad has been his typical bastard self, being crude and vulgar most of the time, and when he's not he's reminding me that I've already buggered up with one son what makes me think I can do better with a stand in?
Said son... One day, I think, maybe I'll get to meet him. But I've lost most of my hope about it being anytime soon. Because his mother is appalled at everything I do and is offended by the thought that me "playing Daddy" in this situation is supposed to prove that I won't completely bugger up our son. I'm not going to repeat the exact words she used because they don't deserve to be repeated. Marshall and Eddie deserve better than hearing that rubbish. And you know, when I say things like that I get told "well then, what do you need him for you've already got yourself a pretty little family over there."
Sometimes I think she's being so awful so she can push me over the edge. Get me using again. Because some days, even when she's not in the picture at all, it is so fucking hard. I never expected my band to be something incredibly famous and I don't think it ever will be. I love what we do, but we're not made for that, you know? I didn't get into this business to be famous. I'm not used to everyone wanting and demanding to know every goddamn detail of my life.
I wouldn't give them up for anything. But it's so fucking hard. And here you have end of the whining of the reality show/rock star who shouldn't be bitching at all.
Touring is a bit of a respite because they aren't quite as constantly in my way. TransCo made sure of that. But when I'm out and about I miss Marshall and Eddie. We Skype on the regular but it's not the same. I never quite missed anyone like this when I was away from them. Which is going to make a lot of people feel like shit but... They feel like my home. And I know it makes me come off as a foolish old man. I've heard as much. From a lot of people. Social media is split in thirds, one part thinks we're adorable, one part thinks I'm a fool, and the other part thinks we're trash that's a waste of their time.
And then there's the people I actually give a damn about. Mum has actually been incredibly supportive, and her face whenever I show her pictures with Meatball... the woman doesn't care that there's not a lick of Malone DNA in that boy, she loves him as if he were. Dad has been his typical bastard self, being crude and vulgar most of the time, and when he's not he's reminding me that I've already buggered up with one son what makes me think I can do better with a stand in?
Said son... One day, I think, maybe I'll get to meet him. But I've lost most of my hope about it being anytime soon. Because his mother is appalled at everything I do and is offended by the thought that me "playing Daddy" in this situation is supposed to prove that I won't completely bugger up our son. I'm not going to repeat the exact words she used because they don't deserve to be repeated. Marshall and Eddie deserve better than hearing that rubbish. And you know, when I say things like that I get told "well then, what do you need him for you've already got yourself a pretty little family over there."
Sometimes I think she's being so awful so she can push me over the edge. Get me using again. Because some days, even when she's not in the picture at all, it is so fucking hard. I never expected my band to be something incredibly famous and I don't think it ever will be. I love what we do, but we're not made for that, you know? I didn't get into this business to be famous. I'm not used to everyone wanting and demanding to know every goddamn detail of my life.
I wouldn't give them up for anything. But it's so fucking hard. And here you have end of the whining of the reality show/rock star who shouldn't be bitching at all.