See, the truth is, I suck at dating.
I tried it. It always fell to shit. And then I married the guy I never had to "date" and that fell apart. I'm 42 and just suck at it. Understanding the physical evidence of a forensic report, I'm your girl. Understanding what to say over coffee? Screw that.
I just wish I was willing to do the long distance thing again. But I'm tired of that. So here I am. Bitching like a teenager. I just miss being married to the guy I wanted to spend eternity with. I know it was the best thing. We were torturing ourselves. I know it was worth the risk, and it's a risk I'm glad I took.
But it doesn't change that I suck at dating and that I'm really tired of being at the top of my field and alone.
(And this whole thing comes about because I said yes to a coffee date and now I'm a wreck. Over coffee.)
I just wish I was willing to do the long distance thing again. But I'm tired of that. So here I am. Bitching like a teenager. I just miss being married to the guy I wanted to spend eternity with. I know it was the best thing. We were torturing ourselves. I know it was worth the risk, and it's a risk I'm glad I took.
But it doesn't change that I suck at dating and that I'm really tired of being at the top of my field and alone.
(And this whole thing comes about because I said yes to a coffee date and now I'm a wreck. Over coffee.)