For mah boo...

[openupyoureyez]

Ok... on the phone last night with Marshall I was asked if I've updated lately and if I did, what did I write. Since I haven't updated lately I told him I'd try to update today for him. I started writing him a letter earlier today and I have to finish it before school gets out. I also have to get a hold of him before school gets out because I might be able to go by his job and see him! :-D I really want to. He was supposed to have gotten his car fixed today which is super cool. Maybe I'll get to see him a little more. I mean, if it was possible, I'd move in with him but I know I can't for obvious reasons. I wonder if he'd want to move into our house. But of course, that would be up to Mom. There are so many reasons I love him and want to be with him. The quote that fits this is... "Last night I looked up at the stars, And matched each one with a reason why I love you, I was doing great, but then I ran out of stars." It seems so true. Another quote I just found that seems obvious for him and I is... "If you look deep into my eyes you can see and feel what you mean to me... i know because I feel it too, that little jolt where it feels like your heart could jump out your throat!" I think all that shows how much I really care about him. I don't know why but just the night I met him (March 4, 2005) I felt so connected to him. I felt like we wanted all the same things and that maybe we were meant to be. Then March 8, 2005 came around and we finally got together. Since then I feel like he actually might be the person I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with. He's not like the other guys. He makes you feel like no one else matters. I know, I hate rambling on about him but this is really the only way I can tell him how I feel. I'm afraid to tell him directly because I don't want to scare him off. He had started writing a letter to me Sunday but never finished. I wish so bad that he had finished, but no, I had to go and interrupt him. Oh well, maybe one day he'll tell me what he feels. Anyways, I feel like all I'm doing is rambling on about Marshall while everyones like, ugh, girl shut up. But I can't. Well, the bell should be ringing soon for lunch so I think I'm going to go and play a game while I wait. Bye everyone. I love you boo!

Love always, *Nikki*