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im on the phone with krista....kinda hard to type and think and talk to her....i think im gunnna make her hang up...
ok,anyway....i have mixed feelings about moving now,i have now for about a week,and ive had huge support from krista and dave-i love them ,theyre amazing. they know they're gunna miss me and are sad im going and yet they support my decisions.
now i am scared,like i always get,that im gunna miss everyone and everyone is going to move on without me....
i hope all my utica friends dont think i dont love them anymore and i am abandoning them...but i know for sure that this is what God wants for me. if you are unsure of that i encourage you to talk to God for yourself and let me know if you can confirm my decision or not. (i have gotten confrimation just fyi though)
krista and i had a long long amazing heartfelt talk yesterday. i totally got everything i was feeling out on the table.i almost cried....
-krista i want you to know that i trust you so much and i want you to trust me too.
-jenny you are my baby sister,you will always be my baby sister, i will always love you wether im in japan(konichiwa!) or next door to you. please try to understand...
-jess and andy,i would love it if we could try again to start a accountability system with eachother.i havent been the best with commmitment but i love you guys so much. you guys amaze me.
-i know dave cant read this due to his lack of internet connection,but you have showed me what its like to have a man best friend,that i can be comfortable with no matter what.i am postative you wouuld never hurt me or take advantage of me. i thank GOd for bringing us back into eachothers lives to show us what its like to have eachother as friends.i trust you and love you forever-no matter where you or i am.
life is full of changes,and i am FINALLY accepting that.....
ok,anyway....i have mixed feelings about moving now,i have now for about a week,and ive had huge support from krista and dave-i love them ,theyre amazing. they know they're gunna miss me and are sad im going and yet they support my decisions.
now i am scared,like i always get,that im gunna miss everyone and everyone is going to move on without me....
i hope all my utica friends dont think i dont love them anymore and i am abandoning them...but i know for sure that this is what God wants for me. if you are unsure of that i encourage you to talk to God for yourself and let me know if you can confirm my decision or not. (i have gotten confrimation just fyi though)
krista and i had a long long amazing heartfelt talk yesterday. i totally got everything i was feeling out on the table.i almost cried....
-krista i want you to know that i trust you so much and i want you to trust me too.
-jenny you are my baby sister,you will always be my baby sister, i will always love you wether im in japan(konichiwa!) or next door to you. please try to understand...
-jess and andy,i would love it if we could try again to start a accountability system with eachother.i havent been the best with commmitment but i love you guys so much. you guys amaze me.
-i know dave cant read this due to his lack of internet connection,but you have showed me what its like to have a man best friend,that i can be comfortable with no matter what.i am postative you wouuld never hurt me or take advantage of me. i thank GOd for bringing us back into eachothers lives to show us what its like to have eachother as friends.i trust you and love you forever-no matter where you or i am.
life is full of changes,and i am FINALLY accepting that.....