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ok so the other day i realized that i am incredibly jealous of my sister. what made me start thinking this was the fact that she can pick up any instrument and just play it well (guitar included, seriously you guys should hear her). and then i realized that she got all the other good aspects of life. you know, pretty, skinny, smart, fun, creative, motivated, outgoing, confident, makes friends like that **snaps**, songwriting ability, sports skills, all of it. it all seems to come so naturally to her. sometimes i just feel like going up to my parents and screaming "why couldnt you have given me some of the things you gave her?" i dont know what good it would do though, considering they didnt have a choice in the matter.
im also major depressed because this week was one of those weeks when i am completely dissappointed in myself. this is the first time i have ever had a huge setback in school. last semester all of my grades slipped down a grade from where they had been last year. every single one of them. we got our semester grades back over the weekend. i got c's in both advanced chemistry and math. and in all of my other classes i got b's. then to top that off, my math teacher from last semester moved me down into the dumber math class. instead of being in BC Calculus 1 where i was originally, i'm now in AB calculus 1. im so just completely fed up with myself and my complete lack of motivation or self control. i mean last semester i was just like "i dont want to be here so im not going to try at all" and i didnt try, and look where it had gotten me.
within the next few months i plan on completely revamping the person that i am, so be ready for a new michelle, cause i sure am
im also major depressed because this week was one of those weeks when i am completely dissappointed in myself. this is the first time i have ever had a huge setback in school. last semester all of my grades slipped down a grade from where they had been last year. every single one of them. we got our semester grades back over the weekend. i got c's in both advanced chemistry and math. and in all of my other classes i got b's. then to top that off, my math teacher from last semester moved me down into the dumber math class. instead of being in BC Calculus 1 where i was originally, i'm now in AB calculus 1. im so just completely fed up with myself and my complete lack of motivation or self control. i mean last semester i was just like "i dont want to be here so im not going to try at all" and i didnt try, and look where it had gotten me.
within the next few months i plan on completely revamping the person that i am, so be ready for a new michelle, cause i sure am